Hey
First of all I am posting after more than a year..... so u must guess; how busy was I, struggling wid the happenings around me.... but even today I have nothing to share in terms of good memories!!!
And I generally post when I am tooooo low... n trust me... today is jes one of the last 8 months of such a mind state!!!
I know it sounds so depressing... but trust me... life or may b 2009 was full of too many Ups and Downs ... sinusoidal but the positives were less and negatives were more!!! ( I am not a very negative person but sometimes u r forced to be one. You jes cant keep up the spirit all the time)
On work front... wooshhhhhh I had the most hectic schedules anyone can.. hell lotta travelling, pangas with the xyzzz ( the official heads ofcourse) and the marriage bonanza which ended like the nail in the coffin...
I quit my Job willingly and till date I dont think I did something wrong, neither do I regret.... but there are times when I jes cant take those questions and looks from people....
Well to recall ( BTW my memory and my writing skill all have gone for a toss... I need practice) My dental treatment got over and FULLY completed after long sessions of pain in April.... n then other session of pain started... which looked beautiful in the beginning but Boss it shook me off and made me numb!!!
After lot of convincing and personal evaluation I was mentally ready to take on the guy-meeting and marriage thing.... he was the second guy I was meeting, the first one was as good as null n void.... n to my surprise it clicked.... inspite of his 'lack of basic courtesies', inspite of lack of any clarity in my mind, inspite of not knowing the outcome... something clicked... I till date dont know what!!!
My Bill paying saga on our first dinner generated another meeting wid him (he wanted to cover up.. which was justified), which was our one of the bestest meeting out of 8 we had till September... which includes phone calls, though not very often but surely ones which showed that we are starting caring for each other... My contribution was always at the higher side....
Someone who seemed as a very different person, not following basic rules of calling back when seeing a miss call, showing some surety in the decision and to top the list was the Family's behavior that made us all think.... We a family of 5, all very closely bonded... n they family of 4 but the so long bond was weird... we ended up with a family tussle where I dont think even he knows what was the reality
One fine day during Diwali hols... the chord broke... n the Guy with whom I wished it should have never clicked went away wid all answers and questions... cant even express the anger, the pain, the dearth of humanity they portrayed...
His thoughts still haunt me.... I will sound filmy but I always think of Jab We Met scene... I wanted to call him and talk to him and ask him What the heck??? wanted to ask him.... do u even understand what this is? Will you ever be able to stay happy like this but I guess he is capable of ignoring everything.... every feeling that he faintly showed or pretended to have... n must be staying somewhere happily!!!! Good for him and hopefully good for me and my parents!!!
Then came my job quitting... I was jes not able to take it...not the guy thing but the work place sucked... n i thought i deserve something better, God has not asked me to punish myself staying there!! I wanted to come and stay wid my folks.. to handle them but altogether after keeping so many things in my mind and heart I ended up feeling sick for myself and at times PITY... yes.... I know it sounds like I am such a frail human but trust me... I m still proud of the fact that after all this I didnt end up getting married to any other jes a good guy.... I met another one, very caring, very honest, good family, but when we met it was nothing, nothing at all!!!! 3 hours face to face were the most difficult ones than an hr of telephonic conversation 2-3 times in a week... so I felt sad for him... I felt terrible, I felt guilty, but I felt I was true to him and to me... and kudos to him he understood..
Today when I evaluate... am I doing the rite thing? Am I going overboard for a marriage thing... is it over shadowing my well - being???
Its tough... to keep my parents at bay from worrying... to answer stupid questions of the Relatives.... to stay away from people whom u want to be in touch... to share, to be happy....
Now can u see the pattern!!! X wants Y but cant, Z wants X but X wants something else and then equation of life is never balanced!!! :)
Present situation, no job, no future, still thinking how and when??
and yes.... in between all this... there was shifting of house in mumbai with our luggage in truck for a night, ending up fighting with the broker, make shift arrangement and ending up into a house full of fake promises.. no water, no mirror :) ( we girls need it Man!!!) and me having a 'not any more' relationship with my bestest friend... and well last but not the least diagnosis of a TB to yet another person important in my life!!!!
Sessions of interviews and meetings for new job... leading a nomad's life... and then still waiting for something to materialize...
There are days when I am blank, wondering... when will I see the rays of hope and light
There are times when I envy those who did nothing to have the pleasures of life
And today is one of the days when I just cant see myself composed!!!!
Hope!!! Dont know how???
Monday, March 22, 2010
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
S [[ @TTERED and SH@TTERED
I would not make it a complicated post, neither a long one, let’s comes directly to the point. I m feeling “LOST” completely scattered and spaced out. Reasons:
1) The dilemma of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong in my personal life.
2) The pain of the dental treatment, which I thought would be a normal one, but it became complicated, so much so, that I had to take a week’s off.
3) The mental fatigue- due to thinking on issues that are beyond my control.
4) My cook- who left us, n we trying to figure out a way to handle stuff with a lazy flat mate.
5) Last but not the least, the most important one- discovering something that shook me from within. For few it’s just a casual thing, without a thought but for few, it means a world. Sounding vague?????? But I know what it is.
How will you feel when you come to know that the most important thing suddenly becomes a matter of “time”, or meager?
Things aren’t looking too great for me at this point of time, but I am not losing hope. I know there are better things waiting for me. There are times when you think that everything is just not worth it, just not required. It’s like a bird in the cage, its like waiting for the first light, of the dawn.
The emptiness is agonizing but still it has to be taken well.
There are few people who have the right to disturb you in a positive and a negative way, and on the other hand there are few people who can just by their mere mention make you feel so infuriating. I know that one should not allow the later ones to affect them so much, but sometimes it just cannot be ignored.
How can someone get away with everything, they do??? This female has no self respect for herself, neither from others nor from her supposedly close ones, but still manages to get away in a smooth way. I think this is a good quality but I personally don’t want to learn. Learning at times can be so dangerous. It’s better to survive alone rather than with a set of people who are a Shame to themselves or to others. Lot of things said and done, the only thing I want is that, this female should not get a reward for even her failures (as a person) and blunders with others this time atleast. It’s important to Show people that YOU ARE WRONG, and you CANNOT just LET GO everything according to your own whims and fancies.
Am I over reacting??? I guess I am not.
Life is a learning- experience curve. Things do take a complete circle. You begin with nothing, a point, then you move along with it and after something you find that you are on the same starting point. How funny, but it’s true, and at times seems a waste of effort and time.
P.S: this post is just a source to throw my annoyance. Please don’t make conclusions.
1) The dilemma of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong in my personal life.
2) The pain of the dental treatment, which I thought would be a normal one, but it became complicated, so much so, that I had to take a week’s off.
3) The mental fatigue- due to thinking on issues that are beyond my control.
4) My cook- who left us, n we trying to figure out a way to handle stuff with a lazy flat mate.
5) Last but not the least, the most important one- discovering something that shook me from within. For few it’s just a casual thing, without a thought but for few, it means a world. Sounding vague?????? But I know what it is.
How will you feel when you come to know that the most important thing suddenly becomes a matter of “time”, or meager?
Things aren’t looking too great for me at this point of time, but I am not losing hope. I know there are better things waiting for me. There are times when you think that everything is just not worth it, just not required. It’s like a bird in the cage, its like waiting for the first light, of the dawn.
The emptiness is agonizing but still it has to be taken well.
There are few people who have the right to disturb you in a positive and a negative way, and on the other hand there are few people who can just by their mere mention make you feel so infuriating. I know that one should not allow the later ones to affect them so much, but sometimes it just cannot be ignored.
How can someone get away with everything, they do??? This female has no self respect for herself, neither from others nor from her supposedly close ones, but still manages to get away in a smooth way. I think this is a good quality but I personally don’t want to learn. Learning at times can be so dangerous. It’s better to survive alone rather than with a set of people who are a Shame to themselves or to others. Lot of things said and done, the only thing I want is that, this female should not get a reward for even her failures (as a person) and blunders with others this time atleast. It’s important to Show people that YOU ARE WRONG, and you CANNOT just LET GO everything according to your own whims and fancies.
Am I over reacting??? I guess I am not.
Life is a learning- experience curve. Things do take a complete circle. You begin with nothing, a point, then you move along with it and after something you find that you are on the same starting point. How funny, but it’s true, and at times seems a waste of effort and time.
P.S: this post is just a source to throw my annoyance. Please don’t make conclusions.
Friday, October 3, 2008
A LONG TR@VELL!NG M0NTH !!!!
Well ya..I know that I am writing after a long long time….but its okie….Had a busy schedule..travelling to places…and as always office work load…
But today…its unlike as always J I have not much work to do..hey wait a minute..will not elaborate on this as to why..because my past experience says…tht Dare if I say I have not much work… n work finds my desk….so after a long week of 3 presentations by our team..which was by the way….up to the mark….this Friday we have a right to be F ahem ahem…I am not writing that Word…Which starts with F …a four letter word….hmmmmmm…don’t think craap..okie…but its end with E…. :)
The time I posted the last one…a lot of things have changed…..now don’t even know how to give a brief about all that ( see I am learning the tricks of the trade…this word is so so very often used at my workplace that it has now found its place in my normal conversation as well)
Let me begin with things I remember the most….after the filed training…there was another training…at All India Level..called DIVA from 31st Aug to 6th Sep…a lavish stay at a 5 star…Retreat for a week..with colleagues from Delhi and Bangalore…with pool of which we never measured the depth…a beach that was stinking and I didn’t dare to go…
But ya, there were assignments….SALSA ( jes four steps though ), and a Gala Dinner…the fun part….Wow…how much I ate in that one week….gosh….to start with..a soup, some salad then starters….( which was most of the time papri chaat ) then the main course, then desserts ( cheese cakes, muffins, fruit creams, sweets etc etc..) n then mouth freshner….so you see a wholesome meal…in proper order with fork n knife…so…that was something !!!!
After comin from them, I was not able to digest even the light home made food…so was down wid a stomach ache…kisne kaha tha bhar bhar ke khane ko, jaise kabhi mila na ho…bt its okie….it happens…
Then I went to Tirupati…wid by dear ones :) and that was my best trip ever…it was a package tour, and the darshan was Awesome…you feel so peaceful and calm as soon as you enter the temple premises…there was a long queue, but its worth waiting, that too with your close ones around and the most powerful “Govinda” calling you. There was loud chanting of the name Govinda Govinda, n my friends (ahem ahem- they’ll get the message) joined the crowd!!!! The temple is Huge, well maintained and gosh well managed, so much so, that in spite of a crowd of more than 8 to 10 thousand people, there is no stampede, no partiality in giving prasad and everyone will atleast get a glimpse of “ God Tirupati” at least for 7-10 secs. Not to forget, the guide was really helpful and patient…I found him cute enough to be caring for all of us, in spite of the language barrier. (Gujarati’s, Northi’s n Southi’s all were there to make it difficult- remember it was a package)
The bus trip, the stay, the food all was good…and above all the feeling was inexplicable….the breeze was so pure and chilling when the weather was full of moisture, there was a serene feeling at Tirumala…the curves of the road, the vastness of the place could make you feel so minuscule in front of the Mother nature.
Then it was another ‘Wave episode’ at Pondicherry….yes my next destination where Mother Nature was at her best…. We went to three beaches…n the waves were beautiful…they were listening to me when I challenged them to go high….so much so that when I took a chance to go near them they took me along…thank God I was holding my friend….so the moral of the story is…don’t try to act smart…and challenge the powerful!!!!!
Those four days were most memorable days of my life…I ate lot of Dosa’s and Idli’s but I liked them. We thought Booze at Pondicherry will be just a phone call away…but the ones who wanted to be tipsy, didn’t even got a drop of it ( ha ha ha ha ) coz when there is availability there is time constraint…..I mean after 11 p.m you cannot get booze…and before 11 the next morning again u cant get it ( and so we ended up having nothing- a booze so cheap, so rare, was now not there)
After this wonderful wonderful trip…I came back to Mumbai meri jaan…n was welcomed by loads n loads of work, bad health, and a work trip to Delhi, having 103 degree temperature, acute throat infection n was on liquid or a whole week…WOW…what an end to the trip sessions, and sad beginning of my Bday week.
This week I was improving but the state was still sad…better than worse but still bad. Didn’t go to any place for dinner, neither took my friends out, and weeks passed, I improved but the work pressure pulled me In…..so till date my friends curse me for not treating them…uff…aur karcha, mumbai eats a lot of money yaar!!!!!!
So this was an eventful Bday month for me, I got lots of gifts so I can spare that illness week :)
Chalo there are lot of breaks happening in between, office is a place of work breaks, u break n everything else breaks….told you I am Free, but then came some work, n my insightful writing got interrupted, jealous people, they know I am Good…Anyways, self appraise is not that great always…
Everytime I start writing I feel I should keep posting frequently, but here I go again…yeh kuch dino ka bukhar hota hai bus :) hope to maintain a normal temperature…I know a bad one, but its okie..
But today…its unlike as always J I have not much work to do..hey wait a minute..will not elaborate on this as to why..because my past experience says…tht Dare if I say I have not much work… n work finds my desk….so after a long week of 3 presentations by our team..which was by the way….up to the mark….this Friday we have a right to be F ahem ahem…I am not writing that Word…Which starts with F …a four letter word….hmmmmmm…don’t think craap..okie…but its end with E…. :)
The time I posted the last one…a lot of things have changed…..now don’t even know how to give a brief about all that ( see I am learning the tricks of the trade…this word is so so very often used at my workplace that it has now found its place in my normal conversation as well)
Let me begin with things I remember the most….after the filed training…there was another training…at All India Level..called DIVA from 31st Aug to 6th Sep…a lavish stay at a 5 star…Retreat for a week..with colleagues from Delhi and Bangalore…with pool of which we never measured the depth…a beach that was stinking and I didn’t dare to go…
But ya, there were assignments….SALSA ( jes four steps though ), and a Gala Dinner…the fun part….Wow…how much I ate in that one week….gosh….to start with..a soup, some salad then starters….( which was most of the time papri chaat ) then the main course, then desserts ( cheese cakes, muffins, fruit creams, sweets etc etc..) n then mouth freshner….so you see a wholesome meal…in proper order with fork n knife…so…that was something !!!!
After comin from them, I was not able to digest even the light home made food…so was down wid a stomach ache…kisne kaha tha bhar bhar ke khane ko, jaise kabhi mila na ho…bt its okie….it happens…
Then I went to Tirupati…wid by dear ones :) and that was my best trip ever…it was a package tour, and the darshan was Awesome…you feel so peaceful and calm as soon as you enter the temple premises…there was a long queue, but its worth waiting, that too with your close ones around and the most powerful “Govinda” calling you. There was loud chanting of the name Govinda Govinda, n my friends (ahem ahem- they’ll get the message) joined the crowd!!!! The temple is Huge, well maintained and gosh well managed, so much so, that in spite of a crowd of more than 8 to 10 thousand people, there is no stampede, no partiality in giving prasad and everyone will atleast get a glimpse of “ God Tirupati” at least for 7-10 secs. Not to forget, the guide was really helpful and patient…I found him cute enough to be caring for all of us, in spite of the language barrier. (Gujarati’s, Northi’s n Southi’s all were there to make it difficult- remember it was a package)
The bus trip, the stay, the food all was good…and above all the feeling was inexplicable….the breeze was so pure and chilling when the weather was full of moisture, there was a serene feeling at Tirumala…the curves of the road, the vastness of the place could make you feel so minuscule in front of the Mother nature.
Then it was another ‘Wave episode’ at Pondicherry….yes my next destination where Mother Nature was at her best…. We went to three beaches…n the waves were beautiful…they were listening to me when I challenged them to go high….so much so that when I took a chance to go near them they took me along…thank God I was holding my friend….so the moral of the story is…don’t try to act smart…and challenge the powerful!!!!!
Those four days were most memorable days of my life…I ate lot of Dosa’s and Idli’s but I liked them. We thought Booze at Pondicherry will be just a phone call away…but the ones who wanted to be tipsy, didn’t even got a drop of it ( ha ha ha ha ) coz when there is availability there is time constraint…..I mean after 11 p.m you cannot get booze…and before 11 the next morning again u cant get it ( and so we ended up having nothing- a booze so cheap, so rare, was now not there)
After this wonderful wonderful trip…I came back to Mumbai meri jaan…n was welcomed by loads n loads of work, bad health, and a work trip to Delhi, having 103 degree temperature, acute throat infection n was on liquid or a whole week…WOW…what an end to the trip sessions, and sad beginning of my Bday week.
This week I was improving but the state was still sad…better than worse but still bad. Didn’t go to any place for dinner, neither took my friends out, and weeks passed, I improved but the work pressure pulled me In…..so till date my friends curse me for not treating them…uff…aur karcha, mumbai eats a lot of money yaar!!!!!!
So this was an eventful Bday month for me, I got lots of gifts so I can spare that illness week :)
Chalo there are lot of breaks happening in between, office is a place of work breaks, u break n everything else breaks….told you I am Free, but then came some work, n my insightful writing got interrupted, jealous people, they know I am Good…Anyways, self appraise is not that great always…
Everytime I start writing I feel I should keep posting frequently, but here I go again…yeh kuch dino ka bukhar hota hai bus :) hope to maintain a normal temperature…I know a bad one, but its okie..
Thursday, June 26, 2008
L@Te$T Le@rn!ngs !!!
What two weeks man!!!!!! Want to know y??? Well they were my training weeks; I joined in May and had my training now. I joined a month before the official joining, reason I have already mentioned in my previous post :) If we look from my prospective I didn’t need this FIELD training at all, but our system is designed as such that whatever we think we don’t need will be asked by them to Do.
What was the training all about?
My arena of work: Research executive who is responsible for technically doing in-depth interviews and Focus GD with the target groups of the client for their product development and new launches.
Field Training: A training module where I have to go in field, to corporates and households and take appointments for the interviews and ask them to fill questionnaires…..
Now do these RELATE????
- I guess they do, for my profile; I ask the field office and people to make recruitments (find correct respondents) for the interviews that will be done by us - the researchers.
- If I am at level 4 and they are at level 3, then I should know how the work is done at level 3.
Exactly, I have to work for level 3 in the field training. Okie, taken, but do I need to do at their conditions, SORRY boss I won’t.
The aim of training should be to teach you the way difficult things are done. But the irony is that the field personnel never took it that way. Their aim was to make us feel that see how difficult is the job “ WE DO” and you have to admit it by saying it “ how u guys handle this?”.
But I don’t agree to this, everyone’s job is difficult at their own level, it’s the way u take it and do it but that does not mean that u make it illogical just to make others feel the level of difficulty. To make their lives terrible by asking them to find someone who uses a credit card, he should be minimally educated, a salesperson etc. They wanted us to feel the pain of travelling and wandering in search of respondents.
We did that as well, but their basics and intentions were wrong. They should have asked us to do difficult job in a planned way but not to make a simple job difficult unnecessarily by adding their frustration that they have with researchers.
During classroom sessions we were told that qualitative researchers are not liked by the field personnel…. May I ask why?
- Because they are asked to do their job, to recruit according to the client requirement???
Well that is what your job is, isn’t it???? And if you can’t do that as well then you don’t have the right to be there.
You talk about the difficulty level; you can take a researcher’s job and see how easy it is??? You’ll come to know how you have to fulfill all the clients requirements by not evening uttering their needs in front of respondents, here we are atleast specifying you their requirements, and Boss if you were as good as US, then you would have been their at our place and not here. I am not making an outrageous statement here, nor do I want to, the only thing I mean to say is that everybody’s job is as difficult and tricky as the other but you don’t have to make it dirty to prove it to others.
In all we were not treated well, they showed us the wrong attitude, their frustrations, their irrational behavior, their supercilious statements and their sarcastic looks and smile. But still they could not rule us!!!!
We worked and learned that was essential and required, we went to field taking appointments and got them as well. The first week was taken by us as a SPORT, but it became crooked when they objected with we using their conference room, and we taking lunch and such miniscule things, gosh what a level, that pissed us all, coz that was the room we were asked to use, n lunch was from the canteen. They made some unacceptable comments and then we decided, to do things Our Way. The training was about to get over, only a day left, thank god it became dirty in the end :)
Actually can’t blame them for their mentality, they know that they can be bossy with us this time around and they are feeling proud of it. But this could be done with a lot more sophistication. Anyways you always learn better the hard ways. Lets see what’s there for the last day in store for us, will they get more crappy or will they just use some harsh statements to end or the least expected will end it happily :)
My Learnings : stepwise
- Be calm in the initial days; get a feel of what the other person wants from you.
- Try to do it in the best possible ways till the work is logical and inspirational ( now here logical is not only from our prospective but from the project and study prospective)
- Don’t let the work get on your nerves and force u to react in an undesirable manner.
- Be cool and try to make them understand that they can’t force us to do crap.
- If still they are stubborn don’t give a damn and enjoy what you are doing.
By the way I took a very basic level interview (questionnaire filling types) with the group head of one of the biggest financial company and I enjoyed it. She was pretty decent enough to have the patient to keep answering the repetitive questions and telling me in the end,” I don’t know how and why I said YES to this appointment, I usually don’t entertain these kinds of surveys”. Now that is where I prove myself. Anything else required Mr. Field Controller. Do hell with anything else what matters is the fact that We can do your job in a better way but u can’t even think of trying your hand on ours. Am I getting mean? To be frank I don’t care. All I can say is that people will not remember you for what you are or what you’ve done, but they will remember you for what u have made them FEEL.
I m actually looking forward for tomorrow’s day happenings ;)
By the way I am watching Pearl harbor, my all time favorite, and may be that is the reason I was so very motivated all through my post :)
Njoy!!!!!
What was the training all about?
My arena of work: Research executive who is responsible for technically doing in-depth interviews and Focus GD with the target groups of the client for their product development and new launches.
Field Training: A training module where I have to go in field, to corporates and households and take appointments for the interviews and ask them to fill questionnaires…..
Now do these RELATE????
- I guess they do, for my profile; I ask the field office and people to make recruitments (find correct respondents) for the interviews that will be done by us - the researchers.
- If I am at level 4 and they are at level 3, then I should know how the work is done at level 3.
Exactly, I have to work for level 3 in the field training. Okie, taken, but do I need to do at their conditions, SORRY boss I won’t.
The aim of training should be to teach you the way difficult things are done. But the irony is that the field personnel never took it that way. Their aim was to make us feel that see how difficult is the job “ WE DO” and you have to admit it by saying it “ how u guys handle this?”.
But I don’t agree to this, everyone’s job is difficult at their own level, it’s the way u take it and do it but that does not mean that u make it illogical just to make others feel the level of difficulty. To make their lives terrible by asking them to find someone who uses a credit card, he should be minimally educated, a salesperson etc. They wanted us to feel the pain of travelling and wandering in search of respondents.
We did that as well, but their basics and intentions were wrong. They should have asked us to do difficult job in a planned way but not to make a simple job difficult unnecessarily by adding their frustration that they have with researchers.
During classroom sessions we were told that qualitative researchers are not liked by the field personnel…. May I ask why?
- Because they are asked to do their job, to recruit according to the client requirement???
Well that is what your job is, isn’t it???? And if you can’t do that as well then you don’t have the right to be there.
You talk about the difficulty level; you can take a researcher’s job and see how easy it is??? You’ll come to know how you have to fulfill all the clients requirements by not evening uttering their needs in front of respondents, here we are atleast specifying you their requirements, and Boss if you were as good as US, then you would have been their at our place and not here. I am not making an outrageous statement here, nor do I want to, the only thing I mean to say is that everybody’s job is as difficult and tricky as the other but you don’t have to make it dirty to prove it to others.
In all we were not treated well, they showed us the wrong attitude, their frustrations, their irrational behavior, their supercilious statements and their sarcastic looks and smile. But still they could not rule us!!!!
We worked and learned that was essential and required, we went to field taking appointments and got them as well. The first week was taken by us as a SPORT, but it became crooked when they objected with we using their conference room, and we taking lunch and such miniscule things, gosh what a level, that pissed us all, coz that was the room we were asked to use, n lunch was from the canteen. They made some unacceptable comments and then we decided, to do things Our Way. The training was about to get over, only a day left, thank god it became dirty in the end :)
Actually can’t blame them for their mentality, they know that they can be bossy with us this time around and they are feeling proud of it. But this could be done with a lot more sophistication. Anyways you always learn better the hard ways. Lets see what’s there for the last day in store for us, will they get more crappy or will they just use some harsh statements to end or the least expected will end it happily :)
My Learnings : stepwise
- Be calm in the initial days; get a feel of what the other person wants from you.
- Try to do it in the best possible ways till the work is logical and inspirational ( now here logical is not only from our prospective but from the project and study prospective)
- Don’t let the work get on your nerves and force u to react in an undesirable manner.
- Be cool and try to make them understand that they can’t force us to do crap.
- If still they are stubborn don’t give a damn and enjoy what you are doing.
By the way I took a very basic level interview (questionnaire filling types) with the group head of one of the biggest financial company and I enjoyed it. She was pretty decent enough to have the patient to keep answering the repetitive questions and telling me in the end,” I don’t know how and why I said YES to this appointment, I usually don’t entertain these kinds of surveys”. Now that is where I prove myself. Anything else required Mr. Field Controller. Do hell with anything else what matters is the fact that We can do your job in a better way but u can’t even think of trying your hand on ours. Am I getting mean? To be frank I don’t care. All I can say is that people will not remember you for what you are or what you’ve done, but they will remember you for what u have made them FEEL.
I m actually looking forward for tomorrow’s day happenings ;)
By the way I am watching Pearl harbor, my all time favorite, and may be that is the reason I was so very motivated all through my post :)
Njoy!!!!!
Monday, June 9, 2008
R@!n & P@!N
Today I am at office sitting dull n feeling grumpy. Don’t know, not feeling too great. May be it’s the weather effect. So I thought of scribbling down some thoughts
It’s raining like cats n dogs here in Mumbai n I am actually having a scary feeling when I came to know that it will stay like this till October. its painful yaar. Gosh its stinky n dirty n irritating if it rains 24 * 7 and you can’t enjoy it coz you need to cross those dirty areas trying to make a way only if you are good enough at the MATRIX STUNTS – by NEO, coz while crossing the roads in between those BEST buses and Auto walas in a hurry to touch the finish line (that is only visible to them n is for them) makes you run for your life.
But still it’s not your school anymore, you need to reach office on time whether its raining or not raining, whether you want to or not, but I guess its part n parcel of the phases of life that comes and go. You need to adapt.
Work life is so different. Me enjoying the kind of change it brought to my life n schedule. The way of planning things has drastically changed. Running for our own needs all alone and making an effective plan for every penny you spent to keep track of things, Man it’s different. Now Dad “a banker provided to every child by God” is no longer our instant cashier or ATM. But it feels good to be independent monetarily and to manage our own resources. Its feel great when you’ve been addressed as MAM from different people at different levels, when you’ve been asked for your distinctive opinion and when your opinion matters.
I attended a SUPER GROUP on Saturday at a five star hotel called Renaissance. It was a good experience. I notice that it’s not that easy to have a creative bent of mind. Supergroup is a kind of discussion where the participants are asked to be creative about designing a concept of the product under discussion and there is fun, khana peena and friendly atmosphere. The participants or super groupers as professionally called are people from various walks of life who are creative. Met some big shots ;) It was a mix an match of people from different arenas, one was an enthusiastic old age housewife aunty, who was good enough to give explanations for all the queries raised and other was 23 yr old female who was been congratulated for her first job. Some one was as handsome as Farhan Akhtar and other one was as funny as a clown who keeps on rolling on the floor and missing his beer.
We discussed their transformation phases in life, there view on different perspectives that will help our clients to analyze their point of view which will help them further in their research. So a concealed way of letting your opinions help your product being designed.
Now this is Creative and qualitative.
This was Saturday, and now a day gone by, so not at all a feeling of weekend will sweep in. Sunday a day should be renamed as Loafday where you feel like lazing around and nothing else. We wet for a movie SARKAR RAJ… dnt know about others but I find it resistable Atleast it’s once a watch. To be frank I don’t like people who go into the nitty gritties and logics of every scene in the movie, come on it’s for your entertainment and fantasies, don’t try to be a detailist you can discuss it, but to be upset with it is like ehhhhhhhh….
So all three of us, Mr nagar, Suicide n me went to Mcdonald and then were loitering around for some while. The clouds were shouting on us, ‘ pls pls go home so that I can pour as much as we want’, so as soon as all three of us reached Home it started raining like crazy n all our shopping plans went in danger. But yup we were safe.
Then nothing we were lazing around made some poha n soup n was YUMMY!!!!!! Fought and then wahi sab TP. So over all it was an eventful day.
Today morning it was raining badlyyyyyy n we got out early to be on the safer side but in vain, we still could not reach early as the trains got late, rain Hang over ;) I guess. people calling left right n centre asking about our well being, coz news channels are there to make it THE MONSOON STORM, a hype. " Mumbai drenched " but guys it always do, haan but the media is highly active now :) more than required.
Nweys reached office on time, but was busy only for two hrs, n ab vallieee, waitin for the right resources to do my work :)
Chalo yaar, got to continue with something , yeh office hai :)
cya
It’s raining like cats n dogs here in Mumbai n I am actually having a scary feeling when I came to know that it will stay like this till October. its painful yaar. Gosh its stinky n dirty n irritating if it rains 24 * 7 and you can’t enjoy it coz you need to cross those dirty areas trying to make a way only if you are good enough at the MATRIX STUNTS – by NEO, coz while crossing the roads in between those BEST buses and Auto walas in a hurry to touch the finish line (that is only visible to them n is for them) makes you run for your life.
But still it’s not your school anymore, you need to reach office on time whether its raining or not raining, whether you want to or not, but I guess its part n parcel of the phases of life that comes and go. You need to adapt.
Work life is so different. Me enjoying the kind of change it brought to my life n schedule. The way of planning things has drastically changed. Running for our own needs all alone and making an effective plan for every penny you spent to keep track of things, Man it’s different. Now Dad “a banker provided to every child by God” is no longer our instant cashier or ATM. But it feels good to be independent monetarily and to manage our own resources. Its feel great when you’ve been addressed as MAM from different people at different levels, when you’ve been asked for your distinctive opinion and when your opinion matters.
I attended a SUPER GROUP on Saturday at a five star hotel called Renaissance. It was a good experience. I notice that it’s not that easy to have a creative bent of mind. Supergroup is a kind of discussion where the participants are asked to be creative about designing a concept of the product under discussion and there is fun, khana peena and friendly atmosphere. The participants or super groupers as professionally called are people from various walks of life who are creative. Met some big shots ;) It was a mix an match of people from different arenas, one was an enthusiastic old age housewife aunty, who was good enough to give explanations for all the queries raised and other was 23 yr old female who was been congratulated for her first job. Some one was as handsome as Farhan Akhtar and other one was as funny as a clown who keeps on rolling on the floor and missing his beer.
We discussed their transformation phases in life, there view on different perspectives that will help our clients to analyze their point of view which will help them further in their research. So a concealed way of letting your opinions help your product being designed.
Now this is Creative and qualitative.
This was Saturday, and now a day gone by, so not at all a feeling of weekend will sweep in. Sunday a day should be renamed as Loafday where you feel like lazing around and nothing else. We wet for a movie SARKAR RAJ… dnt know about others but I find it resistable Atleast it’s once a watch. To be frank I don’t like people who go into the nitty gritties and logics of every scene in the movie, come on it’s for your entertainment and fantasies, don’t try to be a detailist you can discuss it, but to be upset with it is like ehhhhhhhh….
So all three of us, Mr nagar, Suicide n me went to Mcdonald and then were loitering around for some while. The clouds were shouting on us, ‘ pls pls go home so that I can pour as much as we want’, so as soon as all three of us reached Home it started raining like crazy n all our shopping plans went in danger. But yup we were safe.
Then nothing we were lazing around made some poha n soup n was YUMMY!!!!!! Fought and then wahi sab TP. So over all it was an eventful day.
Today morning it was raining badlyyyyyy n we got out early to be on the safer side but in vain, we still could not reach early as the trains got late, rain Hang over ;) I guess. people calling left right n centre asking about our well being, coz news channels are there to make it THE MONSOON STORM, a hype. " Mumbai drenched " but guys it always do, haan but the media is highly active now :) more than required.
Nweys reached office on time, but was busy only for two hrs, n ab vallieee, waitin for the right resources to do my work :)
Chalo yaar, got to continue with something , yeh office hai :)
cya
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