12TH December
Finally the day is here when I can feel the feeling of being EMPLOYED… as I promised to post one soon after my PPT Blog..so here I go….
yeah as rightly said patience pays…yes it does..still cant believe that I got an option to choose a company when people are actually waiting for one. Lets take it one by one…..Yesterday 11th December was the day when at 12:05 to be precise I got a call from one of my batchmates that The Results are about to come for the Company called Mphasis whose process was on Wednesday and result was suppose to come on Friday(48 hours according to them), but as it is said ‘all good things take some time’…and so it took ample time…. so much so..that those three days I was not able to sleep..was lost in my own thoughts with a scary feeling of returning to square one….. the result came out on Tuesday…n I stood for good half an hour outside the faculty’s cabin along wid others..and only one thought coming in my mind..now what????
Was actually blank…how will I take it….n then finally the mail opened..thnk God…. Our Net connection works so well with the urgency of work and works when required ( ask us) I got to know that out of 14 students, 12 have been selected…n as always I was not very sure (though I wanted to be) and for the first time I realized that u see what u want to c… as I was skeptical I was not able to find my name in the list and that feeling was killing I swear…..my name was at 11th number and u need to scroll it down in order to c….ufffffffffff that was the time when I got back into my senses…n eventually could take it as being selected..msgd Jigyasa, Mr Gemini n Thompson..n called DAD…..n that voice is still with me :) He sounded so satisfied..ke kept quiet for few seconds…n said..Thank You Beta…I had tears in my Eyes..n I knw Pop’s was also on the same side jes not being so expressive..then I called MOM…oh my goshhhhh…she actually jumped and shouted like any other kid….they were more than tensed…I shared each n every feeling of mine wid them…n that too every single day. I have a Blessed relationship wid them n Touchwood for that…That is what I treasure the most in my life….then what…called Kriti, chachu, chuha, rasgulla, swati di, ankur and the list continues…Here, all my frenz were having class :( , wanted them to come asap coz I myself still haven’t reacted at all :(
I was roaming here n there, talking over phone..jigyasa was calling me continuosly but me already over phone then I called n she on second call…nothing happening..then I saw her running down in search of me…Ahhh we finally met… hugged each other :) ..….then uncle (jigyasa’s dad) called n talked to me…he said such encouraging words..n blessed me that I could not control n tears finally rolled down my cheeks……jigyasa n me were waiting for the other two to come…waiting for their so called work to finish..some miscommunication…reactions…..mood offs…crying shying n then all set….sometimes things jes do not happen at the rite time but at least ends rightly….then what I went back to my room n guess what??? What should be my first action plan….?????? Yeahhhhhh tickets to Homiwood…Ajmer…got them booked ....by 4…n here comes the second confirmation…..4:17 to be precise..i got a call 4m Major chand…that I made it to Research International too, whose process was on Friday…n I was re-interviewed by them on 10th night… N hey here I was with two best offers..One in IT company n one in Global Research firm… called back Mom n dad…. the feeling was overwhelming..n that forced me to change my status msg in Gtalk that said…” One in hand is better than two in Bush!!! Naahhhh Two is Awesome…Finally Placed n placed at the right place!!! “.
Today when I look back..all those days of tension, trauma, negativity, thinking what went wrong comes as a flash in front of me..and reflects that..its not YOU..its Ur Day that makes the difference. I prepared alike for every company I sat for…was being very selective, was giving my best but nothing was happening the way I wanted to…n here comes the day..when the sun is smiling at me…when I can say that I Rock!!!! N yes I have Done it…feeling Relaxed!!!!! Still that feeling is taking time to sink in….n hey hey Thanks to all my frenz who’ve been so tolerant wid my mood swings and have supported me…n sorry for the delay frenz…I knw u ppl haven’t celebrated yet…but now we will n can have a blast!!!!...New year is ahead…n no one is here to stop Us!!!! So way to go n rejoice…n what more can I ask for…I m going Home finally on 18th Dec… All is Well if it Ends Well….cheers
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Will this Endurance Pay????
7th December
Today is the most imp day for me. I am anxiously waiting for the final result of Mphasis..n rite now sitting in seminar hall n waiting for TATA TECHNOLOGIES, most awaited company for which I did not go to my sis marriage and yet another company research international will be starting at 10:30
There are so many things going on in my mind…yesterday I was not feeling that gr8…cold n fever..was in my room the entire day…n by evening my headache was taking a step ahead….lying down helped but the continuous thought process did not….n I could not help…
On Wednesday I appeared for MPHASIS-EDS company with loads of doubts in my mind..about the company, about the package..profile was good enough..no doubt…but was skeptical about the company n the package….cant explain why I was so much concerned for package…I know I don’t have to repay a loan..but I have a very imp thing to take into hands after my job..and that is my priority…neways…in all that hap-hop…I submitted my resume..n then talked to Swati di about the company..she assured me of the profile as well as the company..so I was little bit more towards being serious for it..but still not that confident..finally I decided to give a good shot at GD and then later on negotiate during interview..not advisable I know..but that was the thing that helped me to move on…to be honest. The GD topic was vague…Passive Smoking is equally harmful;
I spoke, will give myself 6/10 as compared to my earlier performance and then got a call that I have cleared GD..interview went well and as soon as I reached room I got a call from one of the placement reps that I’ve been called by the HR lady of the company. Finally got the news that 99 percent have made it..but still some formalities remaining from their TL’s n that will take some time…lets c…I m actually finding myself in a very confused state..where to go how to choose..I guess time will have the answer for me…cant’t write in much detail abhi…these people can start anytime..but one thing for sure..I would luv..if I can make through both the companies today as well…I know bit greedy :) but I wanna be very sure for what I am Opting..lets c…I guess Research is not a bad option..this field is of my interest and I guess the package is also good….Goshhhhh…can’t I have a crystal ball in which I can c …what is in store for me…this patience is tough to keep…n is killing me…
Hey these people have started…I guess should show them some decency…n close my laptop…till then please pray that I get the best n I will keep u all posted…abhi tata
Today is the most imp day for me. I am anxiously waiting for the final result of Mphasis..n rite now sitting in seminar hall n waiting for TATA TECHNOLOGIES, most awaited company for which I did not go to my sis marriage and yet another company research international will be starting at 10:30
There are so many things going on in my mind…yesterday I was not feeling that gr8…cold n fever..was in my room the entire day…n by evening my headache was taking a step ahead….lying down helped but the continuous thought process did not….n I could not help…
On Wednesday I appeared for MPHASIS-EDS company with loads of doubts in my mind..about the company, about the package..profile was good enough..no doubt…but was skeptical about the company n the package….cant explain why I was so much concerned for package…I know I don’t have to repay a loan..but I have a very imp thing to take into hands after my job..and that is my priority…neways…in all that hap-hop…I submitted my resume..n then talked to Swati di about the company..she assured me of the profile as well as the company..so I was little bit more towards being serious for it..but still not that confident..finally I decided to give a good shot at GD and then later on negotiate during interview..not advisable I know..but that was the thing that helped me to move on…to be honest. The GD topic was vague…Passive Smoking is equally harmful;
I spoke, will give myself 6/10 as compared to my earlier performance and then got a call that I have cleared GD..interview went well and as soon as I reached room I got a call from one of the placement reps that I’ve been called by the HR lady of the company. Finally got the news that 99 percent have made it..but still some formalities remaining from their TL’s n that will take some time…lets c…I m actually finding myself in a very confused state..where to go how to choose..I guess time will have the answer for me…cant’t write in much detail abhi…these people can start anytime..but one thing for sure..I would luv..if I can make through both the companies today as well…I know bit greedy :) but I wanna be very sure for what I am Opting..lets c…I guess Research is not a bad option..this field is of my interest and I guess the package is also good….Goshhhhh…can’t I have a crystal ball in which I can c …what is in store for me…this patience is tough to keep…n is killing me…
Hey these people have started…I guess should show them some decency…n close my laptop…till then please pray that I get the best n I will keep u all posted…abhi tata
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I Fall n I pick myself...I despair yet I believe...yeah tough one
When things are out of your control n u feel so helpless believe me it pains. Even if u try hard to smile u can’t.
I thought I would not be able to handle the stress and have to compromise for things that means a lot to me…but finally I succeeded having a middle path….confused???? Well to be very frank even I don’t know how to put it…Okie lemme try!!!!
I realized that I was moving towards things that would lead me nowhere….n was being extremely negative, was not ready to accept things which were so obvious and made so very clear by others all the time….. coz certain things when u don’t get even after asking for It ( when it should not be asked for) they are not meant for u…or I can put it like this its easier when you accept things ….Its easier said than done believe me….
I was awfully upset for last few days :( was trying to come over things that were piling up for so long and came as a flank to me. I was trying to figure out Y always me?? Sounds cliché but this question is the first one to creep in your mind when things don’t work the way you want them to. It was not placements !!!!! It was something else that was bothering me.
Tough to explain…but one thing I realized for sure; that in all this crap, this sentimental traumas, mood swings I had lost myself, my priorities, my interest and that too for those who don’t even……well want to fill up the blank but I guess its fine like that :)
I was happy enough to have a penchant for everything I do, be it painting, singing, dancing, writing, cooking, sports, talking etc etc…you name it n I can do it…or atleast tried a hand on it ( writing this boosts up my morale :)) but I don’t remember the time when I motivated myself to pursue them as passionately as I used to….My frenz called me chatar patar, mirchi, nautanki n wht not…but lately realized that coz of too much analysis n not allowing this to let go…..I was becoming a completely different person…
It is said that – More you run after things more they run from you…n that’s true…I have to allow things to happen…to face them n to avoid things which are not worth giving a thought or time…..It took me some time but I learnt that its not always important to be right in every aspect…n you should not keep yourself so bounded always…..mann hai to hai….
You should have seen me few days back…I was Quiet, n tensed…didn’t even spoke to my near n dear ones, wanted to but did’nt…not even followed my schedule….and was thinking hw does it makes a difference to anyone…how does it matter?? everyone is busy with their chores…but that matters…n if not to anyone… to me it does…….I wanted to figure out things…n I needed time…till yesterday I was trying way too hard…..Thanks to Ms Kriti Palawat…she has all ears for me..to support me out n out…..I have started being myself for a change…after a long time….its quite possible that people around me must me thinking what a weirdo…till yesterday she was not even responding properly and today all happy n gay…but trust me it took a lot of effort…a LOT means a LOT…
Bhai called up today…n he read my blogs ..he was like…"di do u write only when u r upset????…coz this is not u" :) He said…can’t u apply Jo Hoga Dekha Jayega wala attitude…. Well he was trying to explain his part…cute :) ….n that answered my question….
May be things not taking a right turn, but you can make them turn the rite way through your thoughts…..and your attitude….
No more trials no more if’s….jes being myself will help me…I know…..
I should write often…not only when I m upset…coz I guess my Bro will get upset then; he he he…He actually sounded concerned…for her elder sis …well good for me…will soon post another one…something there in my mind….till the time come….u all njoy….cya...
I thought I would not be able to handle the stress and have to compromise for things that means a lot to me…but finally I succeeded having a middle path….confused???? Well to be very frank even I don’t know how to put it…Okie lemme try!!!!
I realized that I was moving towards things that would lead me nowhere….n was being extremely negative, was not ready to accept things which were so obvious and made so very clear by others all the time….. coz certain things when u don’t get even after asking for It ( when it should not be asked for) they are not meant for u…or I can put it like this its easier when you accept things ….Its easier said than done believe me….
I was awfully upset for last few days :( was trying to come over things that were piling up for so long and came as a flank to me. I was trying to figure out Y always me?? Sounds cliché but this question is the first one to creep in your mind when things don’t work the way you want them to. It was not placements !!!!! It was something else that was bothering me.
Tough to explain…but one thing I realized for sure; that in all this crap, this sentimental traumas, mood swings I had lost myself, my priorities, my interest and that too for those who don’t even……well want to fill up the blank but I guess its fine like that :)
I was happy enough to have a penchant for everything I do, be it painting, singing, dancing, writing, cooking, sports, talking etc etc…you name it n I can do it…or atleast tried a hand on it ( writing this boosts up my morale :)) but I don’t remember the time when I motivated myself to pursue them as passionately as I used to….My frenz called me chatar patar, mirchi, nautanki n wht not…but lately realized that coz of too much analysis n not allowing this to let go…..I was becoming a completely different person…
It is said that – More you run after things more they run from you…n that’s true…I have to allow things to happen…to face them n to avoid things which are not worth giving a thought or time…..It took me some time but I learnt that its not always important to be right in every aspect…n you should not keep yourself so bounded always…..mann hai to hai….
You should have seen me few days back…I was Quiet, n tensed…didn’t even spoke to my near n dear ones, wanted to but did’nt…not even followed my schedule….and was thinking hw does it makes a difference to anyone…how does it matter?? everyone is busy with their chores…but that matters…n if not to anyone… to me it does…….I wanted to figure out things…n I needed time…till yesterday I was trying way too hard…..Thanks to Ms Kriti Palawat…she has all ears for me..to support me out n out…..I have started being myself for a change…after a long time….its quite possible that people around me must me thinking what a weirdo…till yesterday she was not even responding properly and today all happy n gay…but trust me it took a lot of effort…a LOT means a LOT…
Bhai called up today…n he read my blogs ..he was like…"di do u write only when u r upset????…coz this is not u" :) He said…can’t u apply Jo Hoga Dekha Jayega wala attitude…. Well he was trying to explain his part…cute :) ….n that answered my question….
May be things not taking a right turn, but you can make them turn the rite way through your thoughts…..and your attitude….
No more trials no more if’s….jes being myself will help me…I know…..
I should write often…not only when I m upset…coz I guess my Bro will get upset then; he he he…He actually sounded concerned…for her elder sis …well good for me…will soon post another one…something there in my mind….till the time come….u all njoy….cya...
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The Writing phase leading to Phrases
18 Nov 07
Jes wrote some phrases....time pass u c
1) A line that is drawn between friendship and relationship has no dimension if even one of them does not know the geometry of emotions.
2) Life for me has been so kind, always being so mysterious, leaving everything for me to explore.
3) Love, can never be expressed when there is fear of denial and can never be felt when there is fear of self-denial/prudence/caution.
4) An emotional person is successful in the ever lasting phase of life called RELATIONS.
Jes wrote some phrases....time pass u c
1) A line that is drawn between friendship and relationship has no dimension if even one of them does not know the geometry of emotions.
2) Life for me has been so kind, always being so mysterious, leaving everything for me to explore.
3) Love, can never be expressed when there is fear of denial and can never be felt when there is fear of self-denial/prudence/caution.
4) An emotional person is successful in the ever lasting phase of life called RELATIONS.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
PPT- Pre Placement TiZZiness
16th Oct'07
Well I was avoiding this but I guess Writing helps a lot..when you jes want to be quiet and know that cant explain certain things to anyone. My tone do reflect a feel of negativity… rite??? But I guess its jes the sign of prolonged wait for something that is The most important…PLACEMENT… Not actually worried about it but ya want it to happen as soon as possible…everyone wants that…Very happy for my frenz who have been placed and who have been so anxiously waiting for us to be placed to have a blast !!!!! people back home, old frenz all waiting for D day…n moreover our decisions for going HOME for Diwali..I hope I can figure out something by then….
Every morning when I wake up I have a different feel….incomparable from the previous day…n believe me I m enjoying this ride like heaven in the clouds of thoughts so very weird, obnoxious, and at times positive…( hey bit too poetic he he he) but to be true….till date I have never had that utmost positive strike…that you generally have at times when u go for something very important and I guess that will only come on the Day that is MINE….that is only for me, meant for me :) even writing this put a Smile on my face…
I must say that these experiences will stay with me forever, starting from answering those stupid questions of some straight forward people…to questions from those high profiled recruiters…Gosh at times they are devil and at times…. Ask those who have been placed…u’ll get all kinds of adjectives associated wid them…depending upon whether they have selected u or rejected u….but on a very serious note…every time your convictions are questioned you rediscover yourself…and that is what ;may be I should look forward to….people might think that I m depressed or under pressure but I know I m not..its another side of the coin…that is a deep rooted thought process that could either give me a boost or jes give a subdued profile…coz at times I jes don’t say anything but have lot of things going on in my mind…Ya at times I want someone to be there to understand that and jes be there wid me…But I have realized that for me deviation is possible only if I want…n that is a TYPICAL VIRGO…. No one can ever bring me out of my reverie, or thought process if I don’t want that myself….analyzer….the term sounds great but at times I actually have to prod my self..that chill..dont have to think that much…..but I guess…virgos can’t help it..atleast that’s the answer I give to myself…
Since two days Jigyasa n me are out an out supporting each other…I know sounding cliché…n both of us actually don’t need that..but I guess sometimes you dnt even know what u need…she came to me last nite…n jes hug me……saying will miss you like hell after leaving from here….I m bad at expressing to people-that how important someone is for me…I take it in a very different way..cant explain that…but I have already started feeling that so called wind of secede with the ones that have become a part of my routine, my thoughts, my concern…but that is what life is….n its all part n parcel of the game …though writing that hurts :(
I guess should end with a contented feel that the day is not that far when I would be earning, spending, planning all my expenses on my own…n could afford a gift or two for someone I feel like gifting he he he…..
Chalo..hope to post the next one….When I m termed as EMPLOYED :)
Well I was avoiding this but I guess Writing helps a lot..when you jes want to be quiet and know that cant explain certain things to anyone. My tone do reflect a feel of negativity… rite??? But I guess its jes the sign of prolonged wait for something that is The most important…PLACEMENT… Not actually worried about it but ya want it to happen as soon as possible…everyone wants that…Very happy for my frenz who have been placed and who have been so anxiously waiting for us to be placed to have a blast !!!!! people back home, old frenz all waiting for D day…n moreover our decisions for going HOME for Diwali..I hope I can figure out something by then….
Every morning when I wake up I have a different feel….incomparable from the previous day…n believe me I m enjoying this ride like heaven in the clouds of thoughts so very weird, obnoxious, and at times positive…( hey bit too poetic he he he) but to be true….till date I have never had that utmost positive strike…that you generally have at times when u go for something very important and I guess that will only come on the Day that is MINE….that is only for me, meant for me :) even writing this put a Smile on my face…
I must say that these experiences will stay with me forever, starting from answering those stupid questions of some straight forward people…to questions from those high profiled recruiters…Gosh at times they are devil and at times…. Ask those who have been placed…u’ll get all kinds of adjectives associated wid them…depending upon whether they have selected u or rejected u….but on a very serious note…every time your convictions are questioned you rediscover yourself…and that is what ;may be I should look forward to….people might think that I m depressed or under pressure but I know I m not..its another side of the coin…that is a deep rooted thought process that could either give me a boost or jes give a subdued profile…coz at times I jes don’t say anything but have lot of things going on in my mind…Ya at times I want someone to be there to understand that and jes be there wid me…But I have realized that for me deviation is possible only if I want…n that is a TYPICAL VIRGO…. No one can ever bring me out of my reverie, or thought process if I don’t want that myself….analyzer….the term sounds great but at times I actually have to prod my self..that chill..dont have to think that much…..but I guess…virgos can’t help it..atleast that’s the answer I give to myself…
Since two days Jigyasa n me are out an out supporting each other…I know sounding cliché…n both of us actually don’t need that..but I guess sometimes you dnt even know what u need…she came to me last nite…n jes hug me……saying will miss you like hell after leaving from here….I m bad at expressing to people-that how important someone is for me…I take it in a very different way..cant explain that…but I have already started feeling that so called wind of secede with the ones that have become a part of my routine, my thoughts, my concern…but that is what life is….n its all part n parcel of the game …though writing that hurts :(
I guess should end with a contented feel that the day is not that far when I would be earning, spending, planning all my expenses on my own…n could afford a gift or two for someone I feel like gifting he he he…..
Chalo..hope to post the next one….When I m termed as EMPLOYED :)
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
JAUNT- My Home trip
Yeah…going HOME!!!!!!!! To even write this is an amazing feeling!!! believe me….especially for me!!!!!! I wanted a break..big time and was waiting for this day. I know how I have spent the last week..anxiously waiting for THE DAY….
Well I had my doubts to catch my flight on time…and I am saying this coz there were so many things in my way from college to airport :-) like rain ( raining like cats n dogs), arranging the bike, the odd timing permission, to Rescue the bike before 4 in the morning, Petrol availability and what not???? Putting all the things at their right place is actually tough out here with everyone having some problem or the other……gosh..its okay..all good things take their own sweet time…..
And this time it did :-). I reached the airport just in time!!!!! Thanks to the smooth driving of Mr. Gemini, though it started raining and we didn’t know the way, we still managed to reach at 5:35 A.M when my flight was at 6:00. After checking in and the security check, the airport staff at the time of my boarding called out on their walky talky – “ 5 short”- that was the time when I realized, how timely I entered. Science n technology has done WONDERS!!!! And when they get connected with your urge…..don’t ask, they are the Savior…. I was dying to reach my place, an being there in 3 hrs instead of normal 32 hrs journey was an amazing feeling. Jaipur experience was fun… I actually felt touched when all my frenz out there called me right aftet I landed to enquire about my plans, when to meet etc etc…Met Himanshu, Ankur, and Pooja. She actually planned everything. We went to our favorite place…Indian Spice at G.T ( a hangout, where we always landed for E.T-eye tonic :-) for us G.T <=>E.T ) had a good breakfast along with our chit chat and gossips with our spicy remarks- “accha..I never knew this…” as always :-) then went with ankur to ajmer…and those 8 days..WOW !!!!!!!! they jes flew away…
This Rakhi was unforgettable. All the time I was humming our common traditional song that all we cousin sing when we are back together at our place…
Dukh ke din beete re bhaiya ab Sukh aayo reeeee…
Had the busiest days, most tiring days and enjoyable hours and the best part was my gang of cousins, who pampered me like a ‘SMALL SIS’ and were always around to make me feel the BEST. 23 people at one place..Man!!!! it was actually a marriage rehearsal for Princy di..filled with emotions, chaos, shouting, masti, music and difficult situations to handle… In short my trip was a Total Blast!!!!
Then what????? Every good thing has an end :-(, came back on 2nd night.......stayed at my L.G’s..hey must say..they are one of the nicest people I’ve ever seen. Touchwood for that!!!!
Came back to college on 3rd morning in a faculty bus…Uff....yet another experience traveling with Staring faculty…questioning with their looks… Y u Students come everywhere..THIS Bus is Ours..he he he.. Met my frenz, all enquiring about stuff I got for them. Two days from then, went to city to meet jigyasa n Sachin, was really looking forward to meet both of them, she actually called 10 times to ask when am I coming…on the other hand HAD to convince Mr. Gemini to accompany….imagine!!!! Must say he pulls the trigger at the right time to get his work done, through his stupid terms and conditions every time. Finally went to Pizza Hut, teased the stuarts, enjoyed and came back to college in a jet speed Bus…overall an Exult experience from 25th to 4th SEP.
Well I had my doubts to catch my flight on time…and I am saying this coz there were so many things in my way from college to airport :-) like rain ( raining like cats n dogs), arranging the bike, the odd timing permission, to Rescue the bike before 4 in the morning, Petrol availability and what not???? Putting all the things at their right place is actually tough out here with everyone having some problem or the other……gosh..its okay..all good things take their own sweet time…..
And this time it did :-). I reached the airport just in time!!!!! Thanks to the smooth driving of Mr. Gemini, though it started raining and we didn’t know the way, we still managed to reach at 5:35 A.M when my flight was at 6:00. After checking in and the security check, the airport staff at the time of my boarding called out on their walky talky – “ 5 short”- that was the time when I realized, how timely I entered. Science n technology has done WONDERS!!!! And when they get connected with your urge…..don’t ask, they are the Savior…. I was dying to reach my place, an being there in 3 hrs instead of normal 32 hrs journey was an amazing feeling. Jaipur experience was fun… I actually felt touched when all my frenz out there called me right aftet I landed to enquire about my plans, when to meet etc etc…Met Himanshu, Ankur, and Pooja. She actually planned everything. We went to our favorite place…Indian Spice at G.T ( a hangout, where we always landed for E.T-eye tonic :-) for us G.T <=>E.T ) had a good breakfast along with our chit chat and gossips with our spicy remarks- “accha..I never knew this…” as always :-) then went with ankur to ajmer…and those 8 days..WOW !!!!!!!! they jes flew away…
This Rakhi was unforgettable. All the time I was humming our common traditional song that all we cousin sing when we are back together at our place…
Dukh ke din beete re bhaiya ab Sukh aayo reeeee…
Had the busiest days, most tiring days and enjoyable hours and the best part was my gang of cousins, who pampered me like a ‘SMALL SIS’ and were always around to make me feel the BEST. 23 people at one place..Man!!!! it was actually a marriage rehearsal for Princy di..filled with emotions, chaos, shouting, masti, music and difficult situations to handle… In short my trip was a Total Blast!!!!
Then what????? Every good thing has an end :-(, came back on 2nd night.......stayed at my L.G’s..hey must say..they are one of the nicest people I’ve ever seen. Touchwood for that!!!!
Came back to college on 3rd morning in a faculty bus…Uff....yet another experience traveling with Staring faculty…questioning with their looks… Y u Students come everywhere..THIS Bus is Ours..he he he.. Met my frenz, all enquiring about stuff I got for them. Two days from then, went to city to meet jigyasa n Sachin, was really looking forward to meet both of them, she actually called 10 times to ask when am I coming…on the other hand HAD to convince Mr. Gemini to accompany….imagine!!!! Must say he pulls the trigger at the right time to get his work done, through his stupid terms and conditions every time. Finally went to Pizza Hut, teased the stuarts, enjoyed and came back to college in a jet speed Bus…overall an Exult experience from 25th to 4th SEP.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
hey guys...no doubt blogging came suddenly to me..but I used to write a lot during my engineering..this post of mine is from my old collection. I generally prefer writing when I m sad or in a very different mood..so u will always find tht shrouded touch of my thoughts in my writings...this poem was written when two most important persons in my life were not beside me.. n I was goin through a tough phase..so jes pen down wht I felt...hope its not tht depressig..though I knw it is..but thts me wen I m way too Sad :)
Life for me has been full of experiences,
Some which were cheerful n some,full of grievances.
When I try to find answers of sorrows,
All I have is sight of Blank tomorrows.
My past offers me tears of pain,
I wish I could come out, but in vain.
Like others me too deserves to be happy n gay,
To live in the colors of love n Care.
But seldom do I find Someone Listening to my heart,
Left alone is my lonliness, tearing me apart.
For Days and nights I wait n Pray,
To lit up my life through the brightest Ray.
When I now look for things, I deserve,
What I get is ,some explanations n terms.
Relationships for me were so one sided,
Me Waiting, Me giving n still left unanswered.
The stage of my life is now so empty,
Where characters I want are always so anti.
I wish I have all I missed, Those years of my life,
I wanted to cherish.
I pray to God to end this phase,to have some people who set ablaze,
The FIRE of Joy, The SPRING of Love...
And above all the things I Deserve.
Life for me has been full of experiences,
Some which were cheerful n some,full of grievances.
When I try to find answers of sorrows,
All I have is sight of Blank tomorrows.
My past offers me tears of pain,
I wish I could come out, but in vain.
Like others me too deserves to be happy n gay,
To live in the colors of love n Care.
But seldom do I find Someone Listening to my heart,
Left alone is my lonliness, tearing me apart.
For Days and nights I wait n Pray,
To lit up my life through the brightest Ray.
When I now look for things, I deserve,
What I get is ,some explanations n terms.
Relationships for me were so one sided,
Me Waiting, Me giving n still left unanswered.
The stage of my life is now so empty,
Where characters I want are always so anti.
I wish I have all I missed, Those years of my life,
I wanted to cherish.
I pray to God to end this phase,to have some people who set ablaze,
The FIRE of Joy, The SPRING of Love...
And above all the things I Deserve.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
This contemporary Look!!!
Well Well finally I made up my mind to actually Blog...n this is all coz of a nautanki named Mr. Gemini.... who left no option other than to continue with this...I am not as good as him..neither at writing nor at complementing..but it was really nice to get a well created blog for myself as a gift :-) so, eventually I posted some of my previous writings....hopefully I can carry this forward.
Who knows........ few years down the line google people might approach me to add this blog site to the first search page of the most famous Blog writers.....he he he he...jes kidding... jes pampering myself in order to continue.....
Who knows........ few years down the line google people might approach me to add this blog site to the first search page of the most famous Blog writers.....he he he he...jes kidding... jes pampering myself in order to continue.....
A surge of Thoughts!!!!!
1st August:-Wednesday
Well..nothing else to do, MCIS class- don’t ask Way too boring, hence thought of just juggling with words. After a long- break, me writing something…Gosh!! what a boring presentation going on…I don’t know what is the use of coming to class………………..
eh ha…attendance of course. Didn’t get a proxy this time as well..Bad luck L
Today I am feeling a bit different. Don’t want to write the old stuff, day’s happening, but just some thoughts crossings my mind. Since few weeks me having a mix feeling of joy & sadness. Hell lot of mood swings and deep intense thoughts have kept me engrossed lately. Don’t know why, but my reverie level has reached a higher stage. I felt bad for things that hardly matters to others, I felt lonely when no one was bothered to notice it, I felt left out, I was worried for things that weren’t my type on friend’s part. I think I have developed a feeling of keeping things to myself a lot and at times it troubles me a lot. I know I can share with my close ones, but somehow I just don’t feel like, because even after sharing, I get an impression that I’ve not been understood. Ya I know sounding way too philosophical and cliché but this is what I feel. At times I feel happy about the friends
I have who care for me and as soon as I do that, something happens that wakes me up from that serene feeling and force me into a bleak atmosphere of being lonely and asks me to just be self-dependent.
Lately I have observed people being so different at different times. Its actually unpredictable and at times really difficult to digest. I know myself, as a person, my close ones, my frenz affects me a lot, 90% of my mood swings and behaviour is due to their day to day behaviour and I am actually trying to work it out. Eventually I am the one who keep thinking about the stuff that easily go unnoticed by others who are responsible for it.
I know I am a sensitive person but I was always able to strike a balance earlier between sensitivity and practicality, but these days, don’t know, just not able to.
Kriti called so many times..that is the best part, but still me ot able to come-up with effective expressive talks. Nowadays I feel that I should actually start writing about various situations and people’s behaviour during those situations (I hope and I know I can
Do tht in future J )
I am learning a lot, how a person can be so casual with things, how a person ca just ignore what happens around him/her so eeficiently. How when in group of friends, one can ignore someone near and dear to them ( so called) not in a great mood and enjoy themselves, how can a person who do not deserve even slightest of your sacrifice, your attention gets a big piece of cake and how can a friend change his/her priority for others who are not at all worth it???
Why always people who are wrong get right things?
This is sounding very depressing, but can’t help it, these thoughts are creeping in, everyday.
Jigyasa n me talk a lot these things and always lead to same conclusion in different ways.
Some people become important to you and you just can’t let it go and hence that hurts. Gosh!!! I can be so negative at times, but the fact is I always try to stay away from hurting anyone, to keep everyone around me HAPPY!!! Not trying to be modest but I actually try Hard, but then believe me its not at all easy. Anyways while writing all this I didn’t even realized that even the Q and A session is over and my group has already asked a question.
Ohhh I was so engrossed. This clumsy fellow has started taking the attendace by his own from yesterday, so o proxies, SAD !!! L Really Sad. Hey I talked to Pooja today, tried calling her yesterday after her senti message, but in vain, Today we had a half an hour talk and it was good hearing from her. She has made me feel so special lately that I actually wonder what I have done. I was always the same for her. But to be true,an amazing feeling …..Seriously. Friends for me are ‘THE PRIORITY’ and when you miss someone, when you are not together, when you are far off, you actually feel the pain and feel the importance of that person. I just hope I can always be there for my frenz whenever they need me, can’t see them sad. Okay now I should give-up, attendance is over and I can write more and more.
Lets see...
Gosh I know tough to handle the readings na....great going..thanks
Well..nothing else to do, MCIS class- don’t ask Way too boring, hence thought of just juggling with words. After a long- break, me writing something…Gosh!! what a boring presentation going on…I don’t know what is the use of coming to class………………..
eh ha…attendance of course. Didn’t get a proxy this time as well..Bad luck L
Today I am feeling a bit different. Don’t want to write the old stuff, day’s happening, but just some thoughts crossings my mind. Since few weeks me having a mix feeling of joy & sadness. Hell lot of mood swings and deep intense thoughts have kept me engrossed lately. Don’t know why, but my reverie level has reached a higher stage. I felt bad for things that hardly matters to others, I felt lonely when no one was bothered to notice it, I felt left out, I was worried for things that weren’t my type on friend’s part. I think I have developed a feeling of keeping things to myself a lot and at times it troubles me a lot. I know I can share with my close ones, but somehow I just don’t feel like, because even after sharing, I get an impression that I’ve not been understood. Ya I know sounding way too philosophical and cliché but this is what I feel. At times I feel happy about the friends
I have who care for me and as soon as I do that, something happens that wakes me up from that serene feeling and force me into a bleak atmosphere of being lonely and asks me to just be self-dependent.
Lately I have observed people being so different at different times. Its actually unpredictable and at times really difficult to digest. I know myself, as a person, my close ones, my frenz affects me a lot, 90% of my mood swings and behaviour is due to their day to day behaviour and I am actually trying to work it out. Eventually I am the one who keep thinking about the stuff that easily go unnoticed by others who are responsible for it.
I know I am a sensitive person but I was always able to strike a balance earlier between sensitivity and practicality, but these days, don’t know, just not able to.
Kriti called so many times..that is the best part, but still me ot able to come-up with effective expressive talks. Nowadays I feel that I should actually start writing about various situations and people’s behaviour during those situations (I hope and I know I can
Do tht in future J )
I am learning a lot, how a person can be so casual with things, how a person ca just ignore what happens around him/her so eeficiently. How when in group of friends, one can ignore someone near and dear to them ( so called) not in a great mood and enjoy themselves, how can a person who do not deserve even slightest of your sacrifice, your attention gets a big piece of cake and how can a friend change his/her priority for others who are not at all worth it???
Why always people who are wrong get right things?
This is sounding very depressing, but can’t help it, these thoughts are creeping in, everyday.
Jigyasa n me talk a lot these things and always lead to same conclusion in different ways.
Some people become important to you and you just can’t let it go and hence that hurts. Gosh!!! I can be so negative at times, but the fact is I always try to stay away from hurting anyone, to keep everyone around me HAPPY!!! Not trying to be modest but I actually try Hard, but then believe me its not at all easy. Anyways while writing all this I didn’t even realized that even the Q and A session is over and my group has already asked a question.
Ohhh I was so engrossed. This clumsy fellow has started taking the attendace by his own from yesterday, so o proxies, SAD !!! L Really Sad. Hey I talked to Pooja today, tried calling her yesterday after her senti message, but in vain, Today we had a half an hour talk and it was good hearing from her. She has made me feel so special lately that I actually wonder what I have done. I was always the same for her. But to be true,an amazing feeling …..Seriously. Friends for me are ‘THE PRIORITY’ and when you miss someone, when you are not together, when you are far off, you actually feel the pain and feel the importance of that person. I just hope I can always be there for my frenz whenever they need me, can’t see them sad. Okay now I should give-up, attendance is over and I can write more and more.
Lets see...
Gosh I know tough to handle the readings na....great going..thanks
lets c !!!!!!!!!
29th JUNE
Hey...jes felt like writing while reading the retail article...I have a presentation on wed..n I really wnt it to be gr8..this is one class I njoy attending,,strange na..classes n njoyment and tht too me :-) newys..listening to music aftr a long time wid my headphones..Aatif..kuch iss tarah...Awwwwwesome....
Dnt knw feeling bit awkward rite now..thr r some songs tht have a story..I knw I m sounding weird but they actually do.There are so many relations that change wid time..though you dnt wnt them to....but it jes happens..I m lucky to have atleast one relation that I knw will never change..wht ever happens...n thts Kriti n Me...I really miss her..she is one person who knows me in n out. There are times when I jes wnt sumone to be thr wid me..to understand me widout...... me sayin anything....though she is not tht mature..bt she actually cares for me..... I knw tht.
There are times wen i feel so very lonely...n thr is a pblm wid me...i cnt express my self wen I m upset..I jes cant...n thts the time wen I miss her d most. Even in front of her I never used to mention any reasons...but she was after my life...until n unless I tell her... she will keep bothering me through those stupid questions of hers. Actually she knows hw to get things out of me :-) Thank you God for giving me atleast one person whom I can trust blindly...Though I cnt write how I feel when I don't have neone to talk to..when I want her to be thr for me..coz she is the one who knows every bit of my life..those days when I was really tryin hard to stay happy...I still remember we use to jes sit quietly in our college garden for hours..she jes sitting beside me..saying nothing at all but still making me feel that "Amisha everything happens for good"...This was her pet Dailogue..coz in my case everything needed an explanation...Y Did it actually happen????? :-)
Well here at ICFAI things no doubt have taken a smooth swivel....n I was actually able to shroud many things tht were required.... in the nick of time. and I guess things are not that bad...infact better than wht I thought. I have made frenz..quite a lot of them...but still...dnt knw....
Things change so suddenly that you can never be sure of anything. Some things are so deeply instilled that I am really skeptical that...... will I be able to live upto the expectations of all...this is the time when I dont knw tht shud I be tizzy about the happenings or shud I be the way I am....Dad is really sweet I knw but I am a kind of person who cnt say No for anything so easily to my Pops.....n on the othr side of d coin Kriti is so excited about the happenings..nd she actually wants something to happen in near future...coz she thinks that the sooner I adapt the new things the better it is...she wants me to jes live in present..she is absolutely rite but I knw that once I have made up my mind I can stay wid it...but I knw she cares...lets c...I am actually nervous...Well shud I find one ????? :-) thrs one thing for sure I hv lost the decision power wen tht matter is concern....so its better to wait n watch....
Ya yestrday only one of my freind ws so shocked to know that I dnt have a boyfriend.....the expressions were AAAMazing!!!!!! she actually asked me thrice....asked me y am I always on phone then? Y I Have'nt chosen sumone frm the campus..nd I ws actually smiling...do I give an impression of having a boyfriend????? dnt know...well ppl do call me a person wid BIG Attitude....gud for me... :-)..n thy actually keep guessing things...its funny at times
Hey Princy di called today..she ws missing me...n even I wntd to talk to her since a week...but somehow it ws not happening....we talked for good 15-20 min....she is a sweet sis of mine...she actually share wid me each n evrything...be it nethin...n i knw she not even tell stuff to her elder sis...but to me...I njoy talkin to her...n she is getting married..I wish I can attend her marriage...n even..Pooja's marriage ....well well well...Marriages are in the environment...atleast for my near n dear ones.....gud gud...i love my family marriages...thy r anti depressant...dances..masti...hectic days....lovely...eh ehh...i knw gettin too excited..lets c hw many of them I miss n hw many I attend..
Also had a nice chat wid.. Swati di...touchwood..she is fine...n touchwood i have been blessed wid amzng cousins..thy all love me so much...chalo koi to hai..... :-) she too ws Missing me :-)
Was tryin to send some msgs thru IP...bt jes not wrkin...irritating....shud stop tryin now...newys wntd to write more..bt guess its enough for the day...hopefully i write better nxt time...I seriously dont knw..wht hs happened to my writin skill...kriti hoti thi tab hum dono likhte the....
I hope I'll improve...
Dinner time now...n a movie may be....chalo den cya.....wish to write again ...n no doubt better than dis...plz God...
Hey...jes felt like writing while reading the retail article...I have a presentation on wed..n I really wnt it to be gr8..this is one class I njoy attending,,strange na..classes n njoyment and tht too me :-) newys..listening to music aftr a long time wid my headphones..Aatif..kuch iss tarah...Awwwwwesome....
Dnt knw feeling bit awkward rite now..thr r some songs tht have a story..I knw I m sounding weird but they actually do.There are so many relations that change wid time..though you dnt wnt them to....but it jes happens..I m lucky to have atleast one relation that I knw will never change..wht ever happens...n thts Kriti n Me...I really miss her..she is one person who knows me in n out. There are times when I jes wnt sumone to be thr wid me..to understand me widout...... me sayin anything....though she is not tht mature..bt she actually cares for me..... I knw tht.
There are times wen i feel so very lonely...n thr is a pblm wid me...i cnt express my self wen I m upset..I jes cant...n thts the time wen I miss her d most. Even in front of her I never used to mention any reasons...but she was after my life...until n unless I tell her... she will keep bothering me through those stupid questions of hers. Actually she knows hw to get things out of me :-) Thank you God for giving me atleast one person whom I can trust blindly...Though I cnt write how I feel when I don't have neone to talk to..when I want her to be thr for me..coz she is the one who knows every bit of my life..those days when I was really tryin hard to stay happy...I still remember we use to jes sit quietly in our college garden for hours..she jes sitting beside me..saying nothing at all but still making me feel that "Amisha everything happens for good"...This was her pet Dailogue..coz in my case everything needed an explanation...Y Did it actually happen????? :-)
Well here at ICFAI things no doubt have taken a smooth swivel....n I was actually able to shroud many things tht were required.... in the nick of time. and I guess things are not that bad...infact better than wht I thought. I have made frenz..quite a lot of them...but still...dnt knw....
Things change so suddenly that you can never be sure of anything. Some things are so deeply instilled that I am really skeptical that...... will I be able to live upto the expectations of all...this is the time when I dont knw tht shud I be tizzy about the happenings or shud I be the way I am....Dad is really sweet I knw but I am a kind of person who cnt say No for anything so easily to my Pops.....n on the othr side of d coin Kriti is so excited about the happenings..nd she actually wants something to happen in near future...coz she thinks that the sooner I adapt the new things the better it is...she wants me to jes live in present..she is absolutely rite but I knw that once I have made up my mind I can stay wid it...but I knw she cares...lets c...I am actually nervous...Well shud I find one ????? :-) thrs one thing for sure I hv lost the decision power wen tht matter is concern....so its better to wait n watch....
Ya yestrday only one of my freind ws so shocked to know that I dnt have a boyfriend.....the expressions were AAAMazing!!!!!! she actually asked me thrice....asked me y am I always on phone then? Y I Have'nt chosen sumone frm the campus..nd I ws actually smiling...do I give an impression of having a boyfriend????? dnt know...well ppl do call me a person wid BIG Attitude....gud for me... :-)..n thy actually keep guessing things...its funny at times
Hey Princy di called today..she ws missing me...n even I wntd to talk to her since a week...but somehow it ws not happening....we talked for good 15-20 min....she is a sweet sis of mine...she actually share wid me each n evrything...be it nethin...n i knw she not even tell stuff to her elder sis...but to me...I njoy talkin to her...n she is getting married..I wish I can attend her marriage...n even..Pooja's marriage ....well well well...Marriages are in the environment...atleast for my near n dear ones.....gud gud...i love my family marriages...thy r anti depressant...dances..masti...hectic days....lovely...eh ehh...i knw gettin too excited..lets c hw many of them I miss n hw many I attend..
Also had a nice chat wid.. Swati di...touchwood..she is fine...n touchwood i have been blessed wid amzng cousins..thy all love me so much...chalo koi to hai..... :-) she too ws Missing me :-)
Was tryin to send some msgs thru IP...bt jes not wrkin...irritating....shud stop tryin now...newys wntd to write more..bt guess its enough for the day...hopefully i write better nxt time...I seriously dont knw..wht hs happened to my writin skill...kriti hoti thi tab hum dono likhte the....
I hope I'll improve...
Dinner time now...n a movie may be....chalo den cya.....wish to write again ...n no doubt better than dis...plz God...
First Hand Experience
hey....well today is...18th june..n i dont believe dis tht i m writin here...tht too wen i hv lost that apt skill....
basically its not my cup of tea to write it down on my laptop..
i m actually very skeptical about my writings being read by others....except few :-)
don't knw jes tryin my hand...if it wrks...gud for me...coz then i wont waste any more stationery :-)
To start wid the day.. good enough..went for the breakfast...n came bck early...n then got a msg 4m dad...had to check some mail...tht i did'nt want to...bt nehow...hd to...Many a times it becomes necessary to do things u dont feel like...I can put it as Demand of Time...ha ha ha...well its difficult to laugh on unwanted things......ASK Me!!!!!...
Aftr doin tht formality....i ws actually in a serious mood....wnted to read sumthin good...bt ws not able to get the one I was lookin for...then i checked my yahoo mail...n for the frst time I actually read all my forwards (tht hd catchy subjects).... sent by my frenz n cousins....n aftr reading them i concluded tht thy wr Worth it.....then suru came in my room...n we actually njoyd readin them to the fullest....i actually laughed so much aftr a long long time...gud for me i knw....but thr are times wen u knw whts gud for u...still u dont feel like following them.....must say Life is never succinct....u have to get things out of it....
hey while reading my mails..i got to knw tht jigyasa, kriti n me....all in same section in soft skills...COOL na..we actually wntd to hv a common section...be it ne damm subject...well SOFT Skills...ehhhhhhh...dont knw hw mny classes will we attend togther...bt the feeling of bein in same section is finally thr....n haaan...jigyasa jumped n shouted to her glory on hearing this.....
Suddenly I got an online msg 4m ankur...tht my cell is cumin switched off....i thot must be some netwrk pblm...bt then evry third person ws sayin this wen i reached the mess for lunch....called customer care..bt in vain...then buddhi lagai...n then it strtd wrkin again....yippie...aftr tht thr ws line of msgs..one aftr the othr...got 10 msgs in a go...4m frenz n dad...who wr tryin to reach me...believe me tht msg tone ws actually soundin as a complete ring....but i felt gud....tht so many of them wr tryin to call me......I knwww.............. bit kiddish na..........bt tht ws the truth.....
Aftr lunch...attended the classes....Man tht MR class ws actually weird...as in...my name ws been called aftr evry 10 to 15 min....n it ws seriously embarassing to face those stares of my classmates....newys..dont want to discuss tht...
Aftr classes went to canteen....n then TP with Mr Gemini....hey hey...i really wnt to cntrl my tongue....as in.... the thing i m afraid of is letting my own self come out.....but something or the other happens...n i get carried away...
Its not tht i dont wnt to share or talk about my life...its jes tht...my past experience dont giv me tht courage to get into all tht again...i hv become a reticent person....n hv envisaged my present n future from my past...i knw its soundin creepy...bt thts how it is.....may be i m not able to put them into wrds properly....n this again shows tht my writin skills require some honing.......so nxt time b4 writin...hv to think twice......haina...
bus yaar...shud stop dis now...not goin tht well....jes to close it..had dinner...came bck to hostel...ws on phone...for an hr....then then thot of writin this crap...my
day 's happenings....while chattin wid my engg' coll professor....
chalo hv to stop here...gunjan's call....hope i will write better nxt time....
cya
wish to meet again...me n my thots wid dis kind of writing skills...ehhhhhhh..hmmmmmmmm...need a thot ...
chalo abhi gudnite...bye
basically its not my cup of tea to write it down on my laptop..
i m actually very skeptical about my writings being read by others....except few :-)
don't knw jes tryin my hand...if it wrks...gud for me...coz then i wont waste any more stationery :-)
To start wid the day.. good enough..went for the breakfast...n came bck early...n then got a msg 4m dad...had to check some mail...tht i did'nt want to...bt nehow...hd to...Many a times it becomes necessary to do things u dont feel like...I can put it as Demand of Time...ha ha ha...well its difficult to laugh on unwanted things......ASK Me!!!!!...
Aftr doin tht formality....i ws actually in a serious mood....wnted to read sumthin good...bt ws not able to get the one I was lookin for...then i checked my yahoo mail...n for the frst time I actually read all my forwards (tht hd catchy subjects).... sent by my frenz n cousins....n aftr reading them i concluded tht thy wr Worth it.....then suru came in my room...n we actually njoyd readin them to the fullest....i actually laughed so much aftr a long long time...gud for me i knw....but thr are times wen u knw whts gud for u...still u dont feel like following them.....must say Life is never succinct....u have to get things out of it....
hey while reading my mails..i got to knw tht jigyasa, kriti n me....all in same section in soft skills...COOL na..we actually wntd to hv a common section...be it ne damm subject...well SOFT Skills...ehhhhhhh...dont knw hw mny classes will we attend togther...bt the feeling of bein in same section is finally thr....n haaan...jigyasa jumped n shouted to her glory on hearing this.....
Suddenly I got an online msg 4m ankur...tht my cell is cumin switched off....i thot must be some netwrk pblm...bt then evry third person ws sayin this wen i reached the mess for lunch....called customer care..bt in vain...then buddhi lagai...n then it strtd wrkin again....yippie...aftr tht thr ws line of msgs..one aftr the othr...got 10 msgs in a go...4m frenz n dad...who wr tryin to reach me...believe me tht msg tone ws actually soundin as a complete ring....but i felt gud....tht so many of them wr tryin to call me......I knwww.............. bit kiddish na..........bt tht ws the truth.....
Aftr lunch...attended the classes....Man tht MR class ws actually weird...as in...my name ws been called aftr evry 10 to 15 min....n it ws seriously embarassing to face those stares of my classmates....newys..dont want to discuss tht...
Aftr classes went to canteen....n then TP with Mr Gemini....hey hey...i really wnt to cntrl my tongue....as in.... the thing i m afraid of is letting my own self come out.....but something or the other happens...n i get carried away...
Its not tht i dont wnt to share or talk about my life...its jes tht...my past experience dont giv me tht courage to get into all tht again...i hv become a reticent person....n hv envisaged my present n future from my past...i knw its soundin creepy...bt thts how it is.....may be i m not able to put them into wrds properly....n this again shows tht my writin skills require some honing.......so nxt time b4 writin...hv to think twice......haina...
bus yaar...shud stop dis now...not goin tht well....jes to close it..had dinner...came bck to hostel...ws on phone...for an hr....then then thot of writin this crap...my
day 's happenings....while chattin wid my engg' coll professor....
chalo hv to stop here...gunjan's call....hope i will write better nxt time....
cya
wish to meet again...me n my thots wid dis kind of writing skills...ehhhhhhh..hmmmmmmmm...need a thot ...
chalo abhi gudnite...bye
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