PPT- Pre Placement TiZZiness

16th Oct'07

Well I was avoiding this but I guess Writing helps a lot..when you jes want to be quiet and know that cant explain certain things to anyone. My tone do reflect a feel of negativity… rite??? But I guess its jes the sign of prolonged wait for something that is The most important…PLACEMENT… Not actually worried about it but ya want it to happen as soon as possible…everyone wants that…Very happy for my frenz who have been placed and who have been so anxiously waiting for us to be placed to have a blast !!!!! people back home, old frenz all waiting for D day…n moreover our decisions for going HOME for Diwali..I hope I can figure out something by then….

Every morning when I wake up I have a different feel….incomparable from the previous day…n believe me I m enjoying this ride like heaven in the clouds of thoughts so very weird, obnoxious, and at times positive…( hey bit too poetic he he he) but to be true….till date I have never had that utmost positive strike…that you generally have at times when u go for something very important and I guess that will only come on the Day that is MINE….that is only for me, meant for me :) even writing this put a Smile on my face…

I must say that these experiences will stay with me forever, starting from answering those stupid questions of some straight forward people…to questions from those high profiled recruiters…Gosh at times they are devil and at times…. Ask those who have been placed…u’ll get all kinds of adjectives associated wid them…depending upon whether they have selected u or rejected u….but on a very serious note…every time your convictions are questioned you rediscover yourself…and that is what ;may be I should look forward to….people might think that I m depressed or under pressure but I know I m not..its another side of the coin…that is a deep rooted thought process that could either give me a boost or jes give a subdued profile…coz at times I jes don’t say anything but have lot of things going on in my mind…Ya at times I want someone to be there to understand that and jes be there wid me…But I have realized that for me deviation is possible only if I want…n that is a TYPICAL VIRGO…. No one can ever bring me out of my reverie, or thought process if I don’t want that myself….analyzer….the term sounds great but at times I actually have to prod my self..that chill..dont have to think that much…..but I guess…virgos can’t help it..atleast that’s the answer I give to myself…

Since two days Jigyasa n me are out an out supporting each other…I know sounding cliché…n both of us actually don’t need that..but I guess sometimes you dnt even know what u need…she came to me last nite…n jes hug me……saying will miss you like hell after leaving from here….I m bad at expressing to people-that how important someone is for me…I take it in a very different way..cant explain that…but I have already started feeling that so called wind of secede with the ones that have become a part of my routine, my thoughts, my concern…but that is what life is….n its all part n parcel of the game …though writing that hurts :(

I guess should end with a contented feel that the day is not that far when I would be earning, spending, planning all my expenses on my own…n could afford a gift or two for someone I feel like gifting he he he…..
Chalo..hope to post the next one….When I m termed as EMPLOYED :)