S [[ @TTERED and SH@TTERED

I would not make it a complicated post, neither a long one, let’s comes directly to the point. I m feeling “LOST” completely scattered and spaced out. Reasons:

1) The dilemma of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong in my personal life.
2) The pain of the dental treatment, which I thought would be a normal one, but it became complicated, so much so, that I had to take a week’s off.
3) The mental fatigue- due to thinking on issues that are beyond my control.
4) My cook- who left us, n we trying to figure out a way to handle stuff with a lazy flat mate.
5) Last but not the least, the most important one- discovering something that shook me from within. For few it’s just a casual thing, without a thought but for few, it means a world. Sounding vague?????? But I know what it is.

How will you feel when you come to know that the most important thing suddenly becomes a matter of “time”, or meager?
Things aren’t looking too great for me at this point of time, but I am not losing hope. I know there are better things waiting for me. There are times when you think that everything is just not worth it, just not required. It’s like a bird in the cage, its like waiting for the first light, of the dawn.
The emptiness is agonizing but still it has to be taken well.
There are few people who have the right to disturb you in a positive and a negative way, and on the other hand there are few people who can just by their mere mention make you feel so infuriating. I know that one should not allow the later ones to affect them so much, but sometimes it just cannot be ignored.
How can someone get away with everything, they do??? This female has no self respect for herself, neither from others nor from her supposedly close ones, but still manages to get away in a smooth way. I think this is a good quality but I personally don’t want to learn. Learning at times can be so dangerous. It’s better to survive alone rather than with a set of people who are a Shame to themselves or to others. Lot of things said and done, the only thing I want is that, this female should not get a reward for even her failures (as a person) and blunders with others this time atleast. It’s important to Show people that YOU ARE WRONG, and you CANNOT just LET GO everything according to your own whims and fancies.

Am I over reacting??? I guess I am not.
Life is a learning- experience curve. Things do take a complete circle. You begin with nothing, a point, then you move along with it and after something you find that you are on the same starting point. How funny, but it’s true, and at times seems a waste of effort and time.


P.S: this post is just a source to throw my annoyance. Please don’t make conclusions.

A LONG TR@VELL!NG M0NTH !!!!

Well ya..I know that I am writing after a long long time….but its okie….Had a busy schedule..travelling to places…and as always office work load…

But today…its unlike as always J I have not much work to do..hey wait a minute..will not elaborate on this as to why..because my past experience says…tht Dare if I say I have not much work… n work finds my desk….so after a long week of 3 presentations by our team..which was by the way….up to the mark….this Friday we have a right to be F ahem ahem…I am not writing that Word…Which starts with F …a four letter word….hmmmmmm…don’t think craap..okie…but its end with E…. :)
The time I posted the last one…a lot of things have changed…..now don’t even know how to give a brief about all that ( see I am learning the tricks of the trade…this word is so so very often used at my workplace that it has now found its place in my normal conversation as well)

Let me begin with things I remember the most….after the filed training…there was another training…at All India Level..called DIVA from 31st Aug to 6th Sep…a lavish stay at a 5 star…Retreat for a week..with colleagues from Delhi and Bangalore…with pool of which we never measured the depth…a beach that was stinking and I didn’t dare to go…
But ya, there were assignments….SALSA ( jes four steps though ), and a Gala Dinner…the fun part….Wow…how much I ate in that one week….gosh….to start with..a soup, some salad then starters….( which was most of the time papri chaat ) then the main course, then desserts ( cheese cakes, muffins, fruit creams, sweets etc etc..) n then mouth freshner….so you see a wholesome meal…in proper order with fork n knife…so…that was something !!!!
After comin from them, I was not able to digest even the light home made food…so was down wid a stomach ache…kisne kaha tha bhar bhar ke khane ko, jaise kabhi mila na ho…bt its okie….it happens…

Then I went to Tirupati…wid by dear ones :) and that was my best trip ever…it was a package tour, and the darshan was Awesome…you feel so peaceful and calm as soon as you enter the temple premises…there was a long queue, but its worth waiting, that too with your close ones around and the most powerful “Govinda” calling you. There was loud chanting of the name Govinda Govinda, n my friends (ahem ahem- they’ll get the message) joined the crowd!!!! The temple is Huge, well maintained and gosh well managed, so much so, that in spite of a crowd of more than 8 to 10 thousand people, there is no stampede, no partiality in giving prasad and everyone will atleast get a glimpse of “ God Tirupati” at least for 7-10 secs. Not to forget, the guide was really helpful and patient…I found him cute enough to be caring for all of us, in spite of the language barrier. (Gujarati’s, Northi’s n Southi’s all were there to make it difficult- remember it was a package)


The bus trip, the stay, the food all was good…and above all the feeling was inexplicable….the breeze was so pure and chilling when the weather was full of moisture, there was a serene feeling at Tirumala…the curves of the road, the vastness of the place could make you feel so minuscule in front of the Mother nature.

Then it was another ‘Wave episode’ at Pondicherry….yes my next destination where Mother Nature was at her best…. We went to three beaches…n the waves were beautiful…they were listening to me when I challenged them to go high….so much so that when I took a chance to go near them they took me along…thank God I was holding my friend….so the moral of the story is…don’t try to act smart…and challenge the powerful!!!!!

Those four days were most memorable days of my life…I ate lot of Dosa’s and Idli’s but I liked them. We thought Booze at Pondicherry will be just a phone call away…but the ones who wanted to be tipsy, didn’t even got a drop of it ( ha ha ha ha ) coz when there is availability there is time constraint…..I mean after 11 p.m you cannot get booze…and before 11 the next morning again u cant get it ( and so we ended up having nothing- a booze so cheap, so rare, was now not there)

After this wonderful wonderful trip…I came back to Mumbai meri jaan…n was welcomed by loads n loads of work, bad health, and a work trip to Delhi, having 103 degree temperature, acute throat infection n was on liquid or a whole week…WOW…what an end to the trip sessions, and sad beginning of my Bday week.
This week I was improving but the state was still sad…better than worse but still bad. Didn’t go to any place for dinner, neither took my friends out, and weeks passed, I improved but the work pressure pulled me In…..so till date my friends curse me for not treating them…uff…aur karcha, mumbai eats a lot of money yaar!!!!!!

So this was an eventful Bday month for me, I got lots of gifts so I can spare that illness week :)
Chalo there are lot of breaks happening in between, office is a place of work breaks, u break n everything else breaks….told you I am Free, but then came some work, n my insightful writing got interrupted, jealous people, they know I am Good…Anyways, self appraise is not that great always…
Everytime I start writing I feel I should keep posting frequently, but here I go again…yeh kuch dino ka bukhar hota hai bus :) hope to maintain a normal temperature…I know a bad one, but its okie..

L@Te$T Le@rn!ngs !!!

What two weeks man!!!!!! Want to know y??? Well they were my training weeks; I joined in May and had my training now. I joined a month before the official joining, reason I have already mentioned in my previous post :) If we look from my prospective I didn’t need this FIELD training at all, but our system is designed as such that whatever we think we don’t need will be asked by them to Do.
What was the training all about?
My arena of work: Research executive who is responsible for technically doing in-depth interviews and Focus GD with the target groups of the client for their product development and new launches.
Field Training: A training module where I have to go in field, to corporates and households and take appointments for the interviews and ask them to fill questionnaires…..
Now do these RELATE????
- I guess they do, for my profile; I ask the field office and people to make recruitments (find correct respondents) for the interviews that will be done by us - the researchers.
- If I am at level 4 and they are at level 3, then I should know how the work is done at level 3.
Exactly, I have to work for level 3 in the field training. Okie, taken, but do I need to do at their conditions, SORRY boss I won’t.
The aim of training should be to teach you the way difficult things are done. But the irony is that the field personnel never took it that way. Their aim was to make us feel that see how difficult is the job “ WE DO” and you have to admit it by saying it “ how u guys handle this?”.
But I don’t agree to this, everyone’s job is difficult at their own level, it’s the way u take it and do it but that does not mean that u make it illogical just to make others feel the level of difficulty. To make their lives terrible by asking them to find someone who uses a credit card, he should be minimally educated, a salesperson etc. They wanted us to feel the pain of travelling and wandering in search of respondents.
We did that as well, but their basics and intentions were wrong. They should have asked us to do difficult job in a planned way but not to make a simple job difficult unnecessarily by adding their frustration that they have with researchers.
During classroom sessions we were told that qualitative researchers are not liked by the field personnel…. May I ask why?
- Because they are asked to do their job, to recruit according to the client requirement???
Well that is what your job is, isn’t it???? And if you can’t do that as well then you don’t have the right to be there.
You talk about the difficulty level; you can take a researcher’s job and see how easy it is??? You’ll come to know how you have to fulfill all the clients requirements by not evening uttering their needs in front of respondents, here we are atleast specifying you their requirements, and Boss if you were as good as US, then you would have been their at our place and not here. I am not making an outrageous statement here, nor do I want to, the only thing I mean to say is that everybody’s job is as difficult and tricky as the other but you don’t have to make it dirty to prove it to others.
In all we were not treated well, they showed us the wrong attitude, their frustrations, their irrational behavior, their supercilious statements and their sarcastic looks and smile. But still they could not rule us!!!!
We worked and learned that was essential and required, we went to field taking appointments and got them as well. The first week was taken by us as a SPORT, but it became crooked when they objected with we using their conference room, and we taking lunch and such miniscule things, gosh what a level, that pissed us all, coz that was the room we were asked to use, n lunch was from the canteen. They made some unacceptable comments and then we decided, to do things Our Way. The training was about to get over, only a day left, thank god it became dirty in the end :)
Actually can’t blame them for their mentality, they know that they can be bossy with us this time around and they are feeling proud of it. But this could be done with a lot more sophistication. Anyways you always learn better the hard ways. Lets see what’s there for the last day in store for us, will they get more crappy or will they just use some harsh statements to end or the least expected will end it happily :)
My Learnings : stepwise
- Be calm in the initial days; get a feel of what the other person wants from you.
- Try to do it in the best possible ways till the work is logical and inspirational ( now here logical is not only from our prospective but from the project and study prospective)
- Don’t let the work get on your nerves and force u to react in an undesirable manner.
- Be cool and try to make them understand that they can’t force us to do crap.
- If still they are stubborn don’t give a damn and enjoy what you are doing.
By the way I took a very basic level interview (questionnaire filling types) with the group head of one of the biggest financial company and I enjoyed it. She was pretty decent enough to have the patient to keep answering the repetitive questions and telling me in the end,” I don’t know how and why I said YES to this appointment, I usually don’t entertain these kinds of surveys”. Now that is where I prove myself. Anything else required Mr. Field Controller. Do hell with anything else what matters is the fact that We can do your job in a better way but u can’t even think of trying your hand on ours. Am I getting mean? To be frank I don’t care. All I can say is that people will not remember you for what you are or what you’ve done, but they will remember you for what u have made them FEEL.
I m actually looking forward for tomorrow’s day happenings ;)
By the way I am watching Pearl harbor, my all time favorite, and may be that is the reason I was so very motivated all through my post :)

Njoy!!!!!

R@!n & P@!N

Today I am at office sitting dull n feeling grumpy. Don’t know, not feeling too great. May be it’s the weather effect. So I thought of scribbling down some thoughts

It’s raining like cats n dogs here in Mumbai n I am actually having a scary feeling when I came to know that it will stay like this till October. its painful yaar. Gosh its stinky n dirty n irritating if it rains 24 * 7 and you can’t enjoy it coz you need to cross those dirty areas trying to make a way only if you are good enough at the MATRIX STUNTS – by NEO, coz while crossing the roads in between those BEST buses and Auto walas in a hurry to touch the finish line (that is only visible to them n is for them) makes you run for your life.
But still it’s not your school anymore, you need to reach office on time whether its raining or not raining, whether you want to or not, but I guess its part n parcel of the phases of life that comes and go. You need to adapt.

Work life is so different. Me enjoying the kind of change it brought to my life n schedule. The way of planning things has drastically changed. Running for our own needs all alone and making an effective plan for every penny you spent to keep track of things, Man it’s different. Now Dad “a banker provided to every child by God” is no longer our instant cashier or ATM. But it feels good to be independent monetarily and to manage our own resources. Its feel great when you’ve been addressed as MAM from different people at different levels, when you’ve been asked for your distinctive opinion and when your opinion matters.

I attended a SUPER GROUP on Saturday at a five star hotel called Renaissance. It was a good experience. I notice that it’s not that easy to have a creative bent of mind. Supergroup is a kind of discussion where the participants are asked to be creative about designing a concept of the product under discussion and there is fun, khana peena and friendly atmosphere. The participants or super groupers as professionally called are people from various walks of life who are creative. Met some big shots ;) It was a mix an match of people from different arenas, one was an enthusiastic old age housewife aunty, who was good enough to give explanations for all the queries raised and other was 23 yr old female who was been congratulated for her first job. Some one was as handsome as Farhan Akhtar and other one was as funny as a clown who keeps on rolling on the floor and missing his beer.
We discussed their transformation phases in life, there view on different perspectives that will help our clients to analyze their point of view which will help them further in their research. So a concealed way of letting your opinions help your product being designed.
Now this is Creative and qualitative.


This was Saturday, and now a day gone by, so not at all a feeling of weekend will sweep in. Sunday a day should be renamed as Loafday where you feel like lazing around and nothing else. We wet for a movie SARKAR RAJ… dnt know about others but I find it resistable Atleast it’s once a watch. To be frank I don’t like people who go into the nitty gritties and logics of every scene in the movie, come on it’s for your entertainment and fantasies, don’t try to be a detailist you can discuss it, but to be upset with it is like ehhhhhhhh….
So all three of us, Mr nagar, Suicide n me went to Mcdonald and then were loitering around for some while. The clouds were shouting on us, ‘ pls pls go home so that I can pour as much as we want’, so as soon as all three of us reached Home it started raining like crazy n all our shopping plans went in danger. But yup we were safe.

Then nothing we were lazing around made some poha n soup n was YUMMY!!!!!! Fought and then wahi sab TP. So over all it was an eventful day.

Today morning it was raining badlyyyyyy n we got out early to be on the safer side but in vain, we still could not reach early as the trains got late, rain Hang over ;) I guess. people calling left right n centre asking about our well being, coz news channels are there to make it THE MONSOON STORM, a hype. " Mumbai drenched " but guys it always do, haan but the media is highly active now :) more than required.

Nweys reached office on time, but was busy only for two hrs, n ab vallieee, waitin for the right resources to do my work :)

Chalo yaar, got to continue with something , yeh office hai :)
cya

My Dr@matic n St@gy Stay in Mumbai- till now

Heyyyyy.. after a long long time.. well there were lot many events happening here n there, so was just not getting the hold on writing, wanted to but didn’t work. Anyways, better late than never.

Well where to start from. To tell u the latest shot in my life, its my JOB, yes finally I’ve been enrolled as a research executive in Research International Mumbai, though my official joining was from June 1st but some smart buggers got it preponded to May 5th, so I m not on a payroll abhi, hey hey that does not mean I wont get my salary, I will but will not be on papers :) dekha aate hi company mein do number ka kaam shuru..

But to be frank the feeling of working is soothing right now at least. I know most of you out there must be thinking how can she find working soothing? But come on ya, its my first experience n things are good to begin wid, n hope they stay the same. First 15 days in Mumbai…gosh don’t ask, they were traumatizing, may be I m using a less apt word, so u can guess that the experience was painful, but this is Mumbai meri jaan, you have to learn.
The city welcomed me with humid weather, searching for accommodation, looking for hostels, having my longest chit chat wid Mumbai brokers n TRAVELLING in that F***ng Local trains, with women shouting, climbing on you with a smile, saying ‘ thoda baju hone ka’ n then kicking you, pushing you, poking their elbow if you not listening to them. Those looks are yaiiikkkkkkkks, so very rude n ugly. N imagine in this lovely serene environment you have to stand throughout the journey of not less than one n a half hour, n let me make it clear that it is jes one side. This phenomenal journey was courtesy the high rates of flats in Mumbai n lack of rightful accommodation. To increase your general knowledge I must tell you that Real estates rates are second highest in Mumbai after Singapore in Asia, or may be in the world ( I would not be surprised)

As it is righly said, every dog has its day, but here every Auto wala has every day as his own day, what attitude Man, even Bill gates seems to be a simple man in front of them. They will make you feel that how dare you can ask them to drop you at a place which is not their concern ( n this is when YOU are paying). They’ll make you feel that you have disturbed their hectic regime or have wasted their time by stopping them n asking to drop you where you want to go n not them. Same goes for the Taxi wala’s, they’ll not give a damn to give a look or make a pass if you are standing on the wrong side or coming in their way. Even if you are looking ravishing (sounds cheap I know- they are taxi walas, but tabhi to its irony).

And last but not the least, sabse bada jhatka- I LOST my CELLPHONE :( yes an amazing set of Moto Ming worth 12k, was taken by a taxi wala when I ran to give him a change of Rs 13 (by begging people to give me a change of 100 bugs), but it cost me approx 1000 times, now you know the reason of me showing my love to them.
I was actually taken aback for few hours and did not believe that I have actually lost my cell. My favorite one, dad gave me, n I was completely in love with it. I ran like crazy to find that taxi wala on the same place, but in vain, neways gone is gone, but I have showered all my blessings on that A****** who wacked it, he might be facing the outcome anytime from now.
These were some major jhataks, baki chote mote current to milte hi rehte hai jaise, getting down at the wrong station, n then asking 20 autowalas to go to a place beyond their reach, getting a scolding from a traffic police for breaking the queue n getting in an auto (yes you have to stand in a queue to hire an auto..c I told u, its chota mota), getting involved in small fights with the taxi walas for not knowing the way to PM road n asking me, imagine ME Who has a pathetic road sense and woh bhi yaha jaha ek side east, dusari side west, n beech mein central, haan haan abhi its sounding so very simple, yaha aao tab pata chalega, when you see people are running like crazy, more of a ‘Bhed Chaal’.

A coin has two sides. I had good times as well, I stayed at my frend’s place in thane.
We’ve known each other for past 16 years now. She is Mrs. Pooja gupta, who saved my
Life by giving me shelter, food and TV. We went to some amazing places, the best was CourtYard in thane…WOW, beautiful place ( uski sundarta bayan karne baithi to kuch aur nahi likh paungi) n by that time poor stomach of mine was habitual of bahar ka khana, n my tongue was shouting for a change of taste ( please give me something other than that paneer gravy and dals at hotels).

Met Gunjan, finally he is settled for a change, his business is going fine, n his showroom (artifacts) is beautiful. Waise thanks gunjan for giving me your mobile along wid the connection. I can’t breath without one, mobile is my lifeline. Went to juhu, where the smell is nauseating. N still it’s so crowded, some things can never be explained.
Last week Suruchi came and we had a gala time, a nice get-to-gether of ICFAI gang. Mukti, Suruchi, Kriti, Gunjan and me. But my loved ones were missing, they were chilling in the scorching heat of Chennai, Miss u Guys like crazy.

The best news is still in bag, I got a very decent infact great accommodation- a flat- 2 BHK, furnished and all set to stay, with a nice cook, and amazing flatmates- courtesy Mr dev, through him I got to know them.Thanks, see how many people I am thanking. Things have started to fall in place, but Touchwood, n plz koi buri nazar mat lagana ( bit superstitious now, if you were at my place even you would have said the same thing)
Arrey on my work front. It was an eventful week, my office guys are cool, good to interact with and gossip around. Was bit nervous initially but now I guess getting hold of things. On Saturday attended a Super group (a creative group discussion technique for qualitative research) and it was a learning experience. Met some big shots. Will keep you posted on that in some other post.

Ab mere paas kya nahi hai, ek achi naukari, ek acha flat, ek achi cook ( my mom was never so happy after 28th april- the day I landed in Mumbai), do achi flatmates, ek ladaku roommate ( a close frend), and best wishes of my loved ones sitting far away from me spreading out in rajasthan n down south.
Thank you for being there, bearing with me, my tantrums, my mood swings and my ramayan gaatha for every day. At times more than physical presence the mental supports helps to a larger extent. Agar dono mil jaye to ‘ sone pe suahaaga’ waah waah my hindi is improving ya, thanks jiggu for scolding me when I used galat phrases n words. This is called constructive utilization of free hours at office :)

chalo then, wait till my next post-
more spicy one or may be boring, dont know, but phir bhi jes Wait :)

BE$T D@Y$ @T !CF@!

Time flies and when it does you want to hold it tight,
At times words cannot express the importance of moments you enjoyed,
Coz those moments are priceless to get you the Feel alive.

Those were the Best days of my life- the MBA at ICFAI,
Where I found friends of lifetime, with whom I can share and fight.

Where I learnt how to manage time,
Along with important fundas of Life.

Starting from a rented campus, shifting to our OWN ICFAI,
Brought us in a jungle with half built paths and stone piles.

But still we survived coz certain things You jes cannot avoid,
Those tough days of life taught us how to live with resources so light!!!!

Every semester brought us a new aim, we trying hard to attain,
Pressure of CGPA reduced semester by semester, till it vanished to give us only a formality to get it over.

We had it all from bunking classes to sit and chat,
To enjoy teasing each other for a guy/gal we even hate to look at.

Our campus life was different from others, with so many places to explore n to ponder,
‘Jungle mein mangal’ was the theme in initial days, with gossips all around about new couples and their plays.

At times more than a place it’s the association u make,
Those Addas, we found are still fresh in thoughts so plain.
Where bdays were more than fun, official names were jes meant for attendance,
Where comics n novels became more important than books to read,
Where you jes cannot resist to use words n symbols to express your anger n tease.

Where list of movies to watch grew week by week, sharing files at LAN became a routine,
Where passing comments on IP became a norm, hi-jacking other’s laptop was yet another form.

Where craving for good food like pizzas n puchkaas, got nurtured by the mess food so pale n Ghatiya,
Where White house came as rescue with pastries, cake n tea so ravishing so freshening n so absorbing,
Where Ammas of labour canteen shouted at us so tough, n we did not get a word she used, so rough.

Where our struggle for our future brought a turmoil, but finally placed timely due to our effective toil,
Where wait for the offer letters ended in time, n we now termed ourselves duly Employed.

Life never seemed so perfect, n so very tranquil,
When last sem exams n evaluations look so very formal.

When we were free to watch movies left right n centre, no one to bother n to torture.
When we planned our trips with no lecture posing a problem, as now it was all so very conventional.

These two years will be remembered as “one of the most beautiful picture on my life canvas’
Bringing all the colours of joy, sorrow, pain, love, friendship, struggle together in my memory’s compass.

We laughed we cried, we loved we fight, we shared we hide,
All those moments bring a feeling of being alive.
Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow,
We must fall in love in order to know,
We must lose in order to gain,
We must remember the moments in order to cherish them again,
Simply because, lessons are best learned through pain.
This pain is different, pain of leaving things behind to know its importance in time.
To know its depth so sublime, To know its reach in our heart and mind.

$UMM@RY of L@$T D@Y$ Of C0LLEGE!!!!!!

Hey..well I thought instead of writing every trip of those last days of my college..why not jes write a summary n then a Finale...well I would love to write in detail but I guess this will do :)
Hmmm to begin with my exams...well WOW...wht an experience minimum studies at the nick of time..n not at all a bad performance ya..so the formality was over...they got over on 2nd Feb..n then wht???? the era of enjoyment began :)...n people around us were wishing HAPPY MBA :) Imagine..as if its an Occassion..well it was not less than an occassion....we went to places n Gosh!!!!!Hyderabad is blessed with some amazing extraordinary Theme based restaurants man...n we checked them..most of them I guess..but to be frank, even we were falling short to visit them all in our two yrs time..that too when our college was jes 30-35 odd kms away from the city ...n they are all tooooo good...exceptionally well maintained...

We went to TZP...( Note..we are not as slow as a tortoise..we had seen the movie jes after the realize...but as it is said united we stand divided we fall...so jes for jigyasa we went thr again...n TZP deserves tht...i loved the movie newys...) n then our chain of restaurant visits started..eating shopping vallapanti all were in our pockets...coz we knew that this time will never come again..we never gonna enjoy like this again..n be together like this with no tension of tomorrow....so wht??? we went to "Koyala"- seemed like a mujara theme where Mr gemini n Ms Jigyasa planned their UP-theme Restaurant...dnt worry will let u know whenever it is inaugurated...n all are cordially invited in advance...

Then we went to SERENGITY- An African Jungle Theme...uffff tht was a treasured experience....we celebrated our frenz bday jes by chance...n were given a royal treatment with a FREEEEEE chocolate cake n a beautiful rose..tht i smelled till its fragnance was gone....n what freaks were we to sing a bday song n ask for a treat when the waiter came...jes to pass the message that our friend is not treating us well with a CAKE :)...so they were at our rescue...with a yummy fokat ka chocolate cake n warm wishes from there manager ..hey but really nice on their part to serve us so well...we had fun...clicked some snaps..moved here n there in their restaurant to pose for a snap or two...n that Your highness n Your Majesty..was also WOW ( well they were the names given to wash room's ...)So in all a ravishing experience...n then to campus...some gupshup..some bday celebrations n next day planning for another trip...back to home n then ......goodbye time...
the toughest time....
we did not sleep the whole night coz we had to leave the campus at 5:15 in the morning, n we came late from the city, had to finish those last chores of packing n had to sit with the ones we gonna miss :( All said n done..but the moments we spent there were the most cherished moments..sometimes u dont even feel like writing them..coz words fall short for revealing their importance.....there was a feeling of nostalgia, a heavy heart, tears in eyes...n a wish to live that L!FE again....

Everything is so fresh in mind...
Wish Life could jes rewind...
Wish to Laugh play n rejoice.....
Once again become college guys....

So this was it...Don't feel like writin more...but Will try to say it all through a poem I wrote jes after coming form there...Its not tht great..with flowery language..but Yes its..straight from Heart...Direct Dil se... :)

Promises at Times Are Meant To be Kept!!!!!! :)

After a long time I am writing…actually did not get time to…..well in the last post I promised to tell u guys about my BI project n our trip to Dhola ri dhani…well after that trip there were so many trips that each one demands a separate blog… Newys…during this period…there was a complete era of happenings….

Lemme finish off with that BI project…It is often said-everything is well if it ends well….right..arrey by the way BI is Business Intellignece..sounds as if I have worked for some FBI agency…naaahhhhhhh but ya the task was equally difficult with The most difficult faculty to handle…’Sushama marathe’…ask some people here at my college n u will know the answer 4m their very first reaction….she called us anytime for her doubts to be solved, n her work to be done…but kudos…we did it all…n one fine day..we were done with it…but naah…how can she be not confused???? Finally her doubt aroused on the day for which we were planning before a month …..Our Farewell…. ( Ya we were leaving this college…n deserved a grand goodbye)

She called me at 3:30 or so n wanted me to come n meet her..coz she was not able to understand some data findings…n part of the data in her file was missing…..wow…what timing???... Girls being Girls…we were preparing for the party…Saree tying is not easy man…ask us…n then when only 2 hrs remaining to get ready….I was in no position to go n sit with her for an hour…so wht did I do???? ;)

Well hats off to my guts…I told her “ Mam I m getting ready for our farewell…n can’t come right now “ can u beat that??? Yes I literally said NO to her…n was very rude…I m not writing the exact words of the reason I gave…it is kind of ehhhh hmmmm heights…jo bhi…but then I mailed her somehow the required stuff with the help of our Screwed up net…but in vain..then sent a Pen-drive with a junior n FINALLY…..again Mission Accomplished….she got it…n she used it in her presentation for which she made us work like hell…n this was according to her a penalty that we paid for copying a project of our previous sem batch…he he he …..ya we , as it is, submitted the copied project n she being she..Smart…caught us…But everyone has done the same…our tough luck …we got caught coz another group also sumbmitted the same project…Imagine..same class same faculty…n same projects for two different groups…he he he..so a series of blunders…but to end it I got 50 on 50 in INTERNALS…..wah wah..hai na achievement….ladki mein dum to hai..wat say??? :)

And our Dhola ri dhani trip was a Hit!!! We hogged the food garnished with pure ghee ,(seldom in hostel) Clicked snaps…watched Katputli dance, Broke their DecorativeCart which we thought is the real one…played Dumbchirades, kicked each other hard on swings….n njoyed like never before…so all n all Amazing!!! :)

Our exams were from 28^th jan n Our Farewell was on 25^th JAN… so obviously farewell at this stage was more important…ask Mr Gemini..how we actually planned n shopped for the D-day n how he always had a sarcastic smile on his face….saying..gosh..U girls !!!!!!!!

But it was a Gr8..I was looking decent enough I guess…coz I got many compliments that day (blushing) and even saw the one I wanted to..our college Singer.….staring at me twice…he he he..so that means…well..ehhhh…got it na…

So after all the evaluations and exams for which I did not study at all…yaar final semester tha…n I was not able to make up my mind for studying..n I m proud of it coz without studying also I wrote the exam in the same way as I did for last three semesters….but this time I enjoyed…so BONUS….

This was jes the beginning …we were waiting for our exams to get over so that we can njoy those last days of college :-( N we did…sometimes u know that you cannot live without certain things…still you have to… cause changes are bound to occur and time demands you to adapt them….

Will soon post about those last days, my movie presentation, our lovely trips to city, photo sessions and then final Goodbye to ICFAI, the place where we all lived every moment to remember. :)

till then take care...

!MPLU$!VE FEELING!!!!!!!

Right now me sitting in my room…..trying to figure out what should I do?? Well Tomorrow I have 5 evaluations n believe me I haven’t even started for any. To be frank I think I won’t coz I jes don’t feel like..Came back 4m PUNJABI DHABBA…To be precise our only escape from the screwed up dinner of our lovely Mess…. especially on Sundays. This place is actually good when you need to have nice dinner for a decent price. Today I read few blogs so guess ussi ka asar hai..…..jes felt like writing…coz feeling very quirky….While coming back from the Dhabba n while walking on that dark empty road a sudden feeling of keeping quiet and hushed engulfed me…wanted to be with myself..it jes clicked that I haven’t been to our hostel terrace for quite a long time…I used to spent time there when I was upset, very happy or when I jes wanted to be me…..

Sundays are generally for lazing around n I did the same…after having my breakfast…around 11:30 came back to my room n felt like lying down…since then my thought process is at its peak…I was not thinking about something specific…but ya was quiet…n then felt asleep..Didn’t even realize when???? Got up at 12:55 to be precise through a message (Tata Indicom people are actually using hi-tech marketing strategies, coz their messages haunt me at 2:00 in the night sometimes) but to my surprise I had a sound sleep..n touchwood for that…went for lunch….then for tea…n even at tea while sitting on the terrace I was thinking something or the other…I don’t know how to put that in words..but today going out n sitting is taking me into my own world of thoughts……n I guess that was continued when I was walking down that empty road…on my way back to the hostel..I was hardly talking…. I m not sad I m sure of that but Ya..i m feeling different..ab what is this different???... is a million dollar question…..

Got a call for tomorrow’s Viva…yaikksss…I guess have to start..but not having the right mind set..chod yaar kaun karega abhi…mann nahi hai subah dekhte hai..wat say????yaar yeh padhai kissne banai..sachi ab bilkul feel nahi aata..kher…. Hmmm so where was I???? ya on me feeling different….everything is coming to my notice today…

While coming back to hostel after tea..I saw a laborer’s child crying at distant n rolling down in mud…even that caught my eyes n I felt like going there to find out the reason…pata nahi weird thing….
I was also thinking to myself…that things are gonna change drastically in the coming months….starting from me going home for 2 months after a long time n then joining my job..living in Mumbai etc etc etc…this is the time when I can actually be with myself..can be with my frenz and can actually be so free….. to be precise ;’Vallie’ is the word. Its not for the first time that this thought crossed my mind..but along wid this a lot of things were jes making a flash…at times words cannot express what you want to….
I was missing something…I was looking for something…and I am still in a hushed mood…n believe me this kinda feeling has come after a long time…..Things are running fine…but still…. You know what I want to do abhi...to go to a place where I can sit quietly….. watch stars ( I love that)…n jes listen to some very soft music…a place where there is an open sky….n me lying down with my thoughts…may sound filmy…but I really want to do that…I wanted to walk alone..to sit alone..to think alone….I guess I should paint/draw something…hmmm will do that…

Hey me feeling good after writing…I know I haven’t written anything worth…but I m feeling good…this quietness is actually soothing…I can hear my watch’s tick-tick in d room…shear silence….n I m loving this pin drop silence…. guess should stop writing…coz words are falling short for me being able to explain what I want to….newys but it helped..now I will draw something.
Hey thnks for bearing wid me…n would like to thank few… those who have started reading my blog…par yaar comment phone par nahi yaha diya karo…aaj kal logo ki badi fan following hoti hai…so atleast people like me would love to see few comments here on the site itself….n for those who were asking me about latest happenings of new year..well there are many..got my Offer letter…bahut jaldi mila..unexpected..so that was gr8…finished my BI project Finally (don’t even ask..thts a long story..uske liye ek alag blog dedicate karungi…kal k baad..tomorrow is the grand finale) went to Dhola ri Dhani...n finally got the tickets booked for all of us…isse zayada kuch batane ko hai nahi abhi…well I guess abhi ke liye its enough…
Started writing a blog with a different tone n finished with a different one..now that is the effect of Spontaneity and writing helps…
Will soon post another…on my BI project n our trip to Dhola ri dhani..till then cya…

Bonne Annee- Hope a Spanking One!!!

Wondering about the title…well I m trying to learn some new French words these days….yeah n I m njoying this… Bonne Annee means Happy New Year.
To keep up the track I thought - new year deserves a post…
First thing first- chalo bujho to jane …. According to my blog’s display name what should I be busy reading with the dawn of new year ?????
Hint- Virgo
Yeah 2008 Astrological changes.
I jes love reading about astrology, numerology and stuff…lately I came to know about 12 houses of the Zodiac Wheel. Each house has a unique environment and meaning.
Basically these 12 houses tells u about different aspect of luck, behavior, success etc etc

First 4 houses ( personal houses) includes – self, possessions, communications and siblings and the 4th Home n roots.

The next four (social houses) encaptures creativity n children, services n health, marriage n partnership, Death n Rebirth.

The last four (universal houses) includes mental exploration, career, friends n group, Karma n spiritual.
Now After this class of astrology ( I know for some, it would be like attending a boring lecture n waiting to get it over) I m thinking that I should rate 2007 with each of these houses…wat say ( yeah I m goona describe 2007 monthly---‘copyright-amateur’- jisko signal milna tha I guess usko mil gaya ho…so plz aage no ilzaam..coz I hv given u the copyright)…let me try….n I m enjoying this :

To begin with Last year’s New yr Celebration
Jan 2007- In pune…awesome !! jigyasa, Kriti n me along wid some other frenz enjoyed shaking our legs to the beats of new year party with the happ crowd of Pune…so in all a fun-filled affair…was cool n I think I can place it in the 11 House of frenz n grp.

Feb 2007- This I remember was the month of planning for jigyasa n me, exams approaching n we decided that this time no playing around…halaki we woke up late as always..kyunki abhi tak MBA for me proved an advanced version of CCP that I learnt diligently during my engineering (CCP is Cut Copy Paste) but we were satisfied by our hard work ( kitne dino baad khud ke liye hard work word use kiya hai ) so would club this month with the 6th house Service n Health which includes work, education n hard work.

March 2007- Well Well well all n all a professional month. Industry exposure with one of the hard core FMCG co. n my experience with all tempo walas n upcountry market..Frito lays ( gosh I learnt a lot of marketing gimmicks used by Sales Officer ;) )
N how can I forget my entrepreneur venture with network marketing so it’s a Third House that includes change in day to day activity, learnings new ventures.

April 2007- Got acquainted with SIP..uff difficult….n Our Sem results…hey both of us improved our CGPA n was a good feeling. Ehhhhhhh kinda achievement so may be 1st House- Self.

May 2007- Ahhhh my first cheque ( my first part time earning) n finally that khadoos Boss took my final presentation ( jiske liye usne mujhko bahut nachaya- k square n jis din meri pendrive uske laptop mein jaa kar corrupt ho gayi- tha na woh khud corrupted)
But kuch to hua so 2nd House- Possession.

June 2007- Mast ghar mein aish…dnt ask wht value that break had. Lots n lots of gud food after SIP’s crash crunch n delayed meals. Fultoosh aalas, weight gain ( fit), jhakas photo-shoto etc etc …so 4th House- Home n roots.

July 2007- Back to pavilion…to Hyderabad, our campus, n was a good feeling to be back on toes after the needful, though took some time to get into the time table. Can put it into 12th House back to my karma.

August 2007- Festive season, planning of going home at Rakhi, when we were 27 people at one place after a long long time n that emotional feeling of being together with ur family was great. Goes to hmmmm 7th House- social events n relationships.

September 2007- he he he as always my bday n exams, (choli daman ka saath since 5 yrs) but dis time my bday overhauled the exam fever, n I was dragged into mud, was bathed with stinking Dal..yaiikkkkkkksssssss..my jeans is still lying unattended in d balcony so cant put it in any house exactly but ya can be fitted in 5th House of fun, gifts and n challenges ( exams).

October 2007- Don’t ask a tensed month, actually a process of shaping my career started in dis month- Placement, interviews, no serious classes but brainstorming. Well struggle make u strong n hence 9th House of Mental exploration.

November 2007- the battle continues, no relief n to add on the pain, I missed marriages of my very close fren n sis…heart breaking,nothing happening, trauma etc etc so definitely 8th House of Death n Rebirth.

December 2007- Mixed , emotionally low but professionally a feat, but the best thing that happened was ME placed finally with good offer, so my career shaping n what a relief!!!! So definitely 10th house of Career.

Uff finally Mission Accomplished, great job, now I know I will never forget these houses n here my sphere of knowledge increases when it comes to astrology. Hence this was a crash course/ summary through a different topic of my interest of the year 2007…wat say…wat about 2008…well new job, new city, new n content feel of being independent financially n then u never know what you have for u in store but I hope I manage things n be successful in the work culture and then I thought of a line which I think is true for most of us: One of the finest morale boosters you can have, goes like this- “The best thing that ever happened to me Is Me, Myself”. So kabhi kabhi isko kaam mein le lenge…

Chalo Hope all of us have a rocking year ahead….cya…