12TH December
Finally the day is here when I can feel the feeling of being EMPLOYED… as I promised to post one soon after my PPT Blog..so here I go….
yeah as rightly said patience pays…yes it does..still cant believe that I got an option to choose a company when people are actually waiting for one. Lets take it one by one…..Yesterday 11th December was the day when at 12:05 to be precise I got a call from one of my batchmates that The Results are about to come for the Company called Mphasis whose process was on Wednesday and result was suppose to come on Friday(48 hours according to them), but as it is said ‘all good things take some time’…and so it took ample time…. so much so..that those three days I was not able to sleep..was lost in my own thoughts with a scary feeling of returning to square one….. the result came out on Tuesday…n I stood for good half an hour outside the faculty’s cabin along wid others..and only one thought coming in my mind..now what????
Was actually blank…how will I take it….n then finally the mail opened..thnk God…. Our Net connection works so well with the urgency of work and works when required ( ask us) I got to know that out of 14 students, 12 have been selected…n as always I was not very sure (though I wanted to be) and for the first time I realized that u see what u want to c… as I was skeptical I was not able to find my name in the list and that feeling was killing I swear…..my name was at 11th number and u need to scroll it down in order to c….ufffffffffff that was the time when I got back into my senses…n eventually could take it as being selected..msgd Jigyasa, Mr Gemini n Thompson..n called DAD…..n that voice is still with me :) He sounded so satisfied..ke kept quiet for few seconds…n said..Thank You Beta…I had tears in my Eyes..n I knw Pop’s was also on the same side jes not being so expressive..then I called MOM…oh my goshhhhh…she actually jumped and shouted like any other kid….they were more than tensed…I shared each n every feeling of mine wid them…n that too every single day. I have a Blessed relationship wid them n Touchwood for that…That is what I treasure the most in my life….then what…called Kriti, chachu, chuha, rasgulla, swati di, ankur and the list continues…Here, all my frenz were having class :( , wanted them to come asap coz I myself still haven’t reacted at all :(
I was roaming here n there, talking over phone..jigyasa was calling me continuosly but me already over phone then I called n she on second call…nothing happening..then I saw her running down in search of me…Ahhh we finally met… hugged each other :) ..….then uncle (jigyasa’s dad) called n talked to me…he said such encouraging words..n blessed me that I could not control n tears finally rolled down my cheeks……jigyasa n me were waiting for the other two to come…waiting for their so called work to finish..some miscommunication…reactions…..mood offs…crying shying n then all set….sometimes things jes do not happen at the rite time but at least ends rightly….then what I went back to my room n guess what??? What should be my first action plan….?????? Yeahhhhhh tickets to Homiwood…Ajmer…got them booked ....by 4…n here comes the second confirmation…..4:17 to be precise..i got a call 4m Major chand…that I made it to Research International too, whose process was on Friday…n I was re-interviewed by them on 10th night… N hey here I was with two best offers..One in IT company n one in Global Research firm… called back Mom n dad…. the feeling was overwhelming..n that forced me to change my status msg in Gtalk that said…” One in hand is better than two in Bush!!! Naahhhh Two is Awesome…Finally Placed n placed at the right place!!! “.
Today when I look back..all those days of tension, trauma, negativity, thinking what went wrong comes as a flash in front of me..and reflects that..its not YOU..its Ur Day that makes the difference. I prepared alike for every company I sat for…was being very selective, was giving my best but nothing was happening the way I wanted to…n here comes the day..when the sun is smiling at me…when I can say that I Rock!!!! N yes I have Done it…feeling Relaxed!!!!! Still that feeling is taking time to sink in….n hey hey Thanks to all my frenz who’ve been so tolerant wid my mood swings and have supported me…n sorry for the delay frenz…I knw u ppl haven’t celebrated yet…but now we will n can have a blast!!!!...New year is ahead…n no one is here to stop Us!!!! So way to go n rejoice…n what more can I ask for…I m going Home finally on 18th Dec… All is Well if it Ends Well….cheers
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Will this Endurance Pay????
7th December
Today is the most imp day for me. I am anxiously waiting for the final result of Mphasis..n rite now sitting in seminar hall n waiting for TATA TECHNOLOGIES, most awaited company for which I did not go to my sis marriage and yet another company research international will be starting at 10:30
There are so many things going on in my mind…yesterday I was not feeling that gr8…cold n fever..was in my room the entire day…n by evening my headache was taking a step ahead….lying down helped but the continuous thought process did not….n I could not help…
On Wednesday I appeared for MPHASIS-EDS company with loads of doubts in my mind..about the company, about the package..profile was good enough..no doubt…but was skeptical about the company n the package….cant explain why I was so much concerned for package…I know I don’t have to repay a loan..but I have a very imp thing to take into hands after my job..and that is my priority…neways…in all that hap-hop…I submitted my resume..n then talked to Swati di about the company..she assured me of the profile as well as the company..so I was little bit more towards being serious for it..but still not that confident..finally I decided to give a good shot at GD and then later on negotiate during interview..not advisable I know..but that was the thing that helped me to move on…to be honest. The GD topic was vague…Passive Smoking is equally harmful;
I spoke, will give myself 6/10 as compared to my earlier performance and then got a call that I have cleared GD..interview went well and as soon as I reached room I got a call from one of the placement reps that I’ve been called by the HR lady of the company. Finally got the news that 99 percent have made it..but still some formalities remaining from their TL’s n that will take some time…lets c…I m actually finding myself in a very confused state..where to go how to choose..I guess time will have the answer for me…cant’t write in much detail abhi…these people can start anytime..but one thing for sure..I would luv..if I can make through both the companies today as well…I know bit greedy :) but I wanna be very sure for what I am Opting..lets c…I guess Research is not a bad option..this field is of my interest and I guess the package is also good….Goshhhhh…can’t I have a crystal ball in which I can c …what is in store for me…this patience is tough to keep…n is killing me…
Hey these people have started…I guess should show them some decency…n close my laptop…till then please pray that I get the best n I will keep u all posted…abhi tata
Today is the most imp day for me. I am anxiously waiting for the final result of Mphasis..n rite now sitting in seminar hall n waiting for TATA TECHNOLOGIES, most awaited company for which I did not go to my sis marriage and yet another company research international will be starting at 10:30
There are so many things going on in my mind…yesterday I was not feeling that gr8…cold n fever..was in my room the entire day…n by evening my headache was taking a step ahead….lying down helped but the continuous thought process did not….n I could not help…
On Wednesday I appeared for MPHASIS-EDS company with loads of doubts in my mind..about the company, about the package..profile was good enough..no doubt…but was skeptical about the company n the package….cant explain why I was so much concerned for package…I know I don’t have to repay a loan..but I have a very imp thing to take into hands after my job..and that is my priority…neways…in all that hap-hop…I submitted my resume..n then talked to Swati di about the company..she assured me of the profile as well as the company..so I was little bit more towards being serious for it..but still not that confident..finally I decided to give a good shot at GD and then later on negotiate during interview..not advisable I know..but that was the thing that helped me to move on…to be honest. The GD topic was vague…Passive Smoking is equally harmful;
I spoke, will give myself 6/10 as compared to my earlier performance and then got a call that I have cleared GD..interview went well and as soon as I reached room I got a call from one of the placement reps that I’ve been called by the HR lady of the company. Finally got the news that 99 percent have made it..but still some formalities remaining from their TL’s n that will take some time…lets c…I m actually finding myself in a very confused state..where to go how to choose..I guess time will have the answer for me…cant’t write in much detail abhi…these people can start anytime..but one thing for sure..I would luv..if I can make through both the companies today as well…I know bit greedy :) but I wanna be very sure for what I am Opting..lets c…I guess Research is not a bad option..this field is of my interest and I guess the package is also good….Goshhhhh…can’t I have a crystal ball in which I can c …what is in store for me…this patience is tough to keep…n is killing me…
Hey these people have started…I guess should show them some decency…n close my laptop…till then please pray that I get the best n I will keep u all posted…abhi tata
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I Fall n I pick myself...I despair yet I believe...yeah tough one
When things are out of your control n u feel so helpless believe me it pains. Even if u try hard to smile u can’t.
I thought I would not be able to handle the stress and have to compromise for things that means a lot to me…but finally I succeeded having a middle path….confused???? Well to be very frank even I don’t know how to put it…Okie lemme try!!!!
I realized that I was moving towards things that would lead me nowhere….n was being extremely negative, was not ready to accept things which were so obvious and made so very clear by others all the time….. coz certain things when u don’t get even after asking for It ( when it should not be asked for) they are not meant for u…or I can put it like this its easier when you accept things ….Its easier said than done believe me….
I was awfully upset for last few days :( was trying to come over things that were piling up for so long and came as a flank to me. I was trying to figure out Y always me?? Sounds cliché but this question is the first one to creep in your mind when things don’t work the way you want them to. It was not placements !!!!! It was something else that was bothering me.
Tough to explain…but one thing I realized for sure; that in all this crap, this sentimental traumas, mood swings I had lost myself, my priorities, my interest and that too for those who don’t even……well want to fill up the blank but I guess its fine like that :)
I was happy enough to have a penchant for everything I do, be it painting, singing, dancing, writing, cooking, sports, talking etc etc…you name it n I can do it…or atleast tried a hand on it ( writing this boosts up my morale :)) but I don’t remember the time when I motivated myself to pursue them as passionately as I used to….My frenz called me chatar patar, mirchi, nautanki n wht not…but lately realized that coz of too much analysis n not allowing this to let go…..I was becoming a completely different person…
It is said that – More you run after things more they run from you…n that’s true…I have to allow things to happen…to face them n to avoid things which are not worth giving a thought or time…..It took me some time but I learnt that its not always important to be right in every aspect…n you should not keep yourself so bounded always…..mann hai to hai….
You should have seen me few days back…I was Quiet, n tensed…didn’t even spoke to my near n dear ones, wanted to but did’nt…not even followed my schedule….and was thinking hw does it makes a difference to anyone…how does it matter?? everyone is busy with their chores…but that matters…n if not to anyone… to me it does…….I wanted to figure out things…n I needed time…till yesterday I was trying way too hard…..Thanks to Ms Kriti Palawat…she has all ears for me..to support me out n out…..I have started being myself for a change…after a long time….its quite possible that people around me must me thinking what a weirdo…till yesterday she was not even responding properly and today all happy n gay…but trust me it took a lot of effort…a LOT means a LOT…
Bhai called up today…n he read my blogs ..he was like…"di do u write only when u r upset????…coz this is not u" :) He said…can’t u apply Jo Hoga Dekha Jayega wala attitude…. Well he was trying to explain his part…cute :) ….n that answered my question….
May be things not taking a right turn, but you can make them turn the rite way through your thoughts…..and your attitude….
No more trials no more if’s….jes being myself will help me…I know…..
I should write often…not only when I m upset…coz I guess my Bro will get upset then; he he he…He actually sounded concerned…for her elder sis …well good for me…will soon post another one…something there in my mind….till the time come….u all njoy….cya...
I thought I would not be able to handle the stress and have to compromise for things that means a lot to me…but finally I succeeded having a middle path….confused???? Well to be very frank even I don’t know how to put it…Okie lemme try!!!!
I realized that I was moving towards things that would lead me nowhere….n was being extremely negative, was not ready to accept things which were so obvious and made so very clear by others all the time….. coz certain things when u don’t get even after asking for It ( when it should not be asked for) they are not meant for u…or I can put it like this its easier when you accept things ….Its easier said than done believe me….
I was awfully upset for last few days :( was trying to come over things that were piling up for so long and came as a flank to me. I was trying to figure out Y always me?? Sounds cliché but this question is the first one to creep in your mind when things don’t work the way you want them to. It was not placements !!!!! It was something else that was bothering me.
Tough to explain…but one thing I realized for sure; that in all this crap, this sentimental traumas, mood swings I had lost myself, my priorities, my interest and that too for those who don’t even……well want to fill up the blank but I guess its fine like that :)
I was happy enough to have a penchant for everything I do, be it painting, singing, dancing, writing, cooking, sports, talking etc etc…you name it n I can do it…or atleast tried a hand on it ( writing this boosts up my morale :)) but I don’t remember the time when I motivated myself to pursue them as passionately as I used to….My frenz called me chatar patar, mirchi, nautanki n wht not…but lately realized that coz of too much analysis n not allowing this to let go…..I was becoming a completely different person…
It is said that – More you run after things more they run from you…n that’s true…I have to allow things to happen…to face them n to avoid things which are not worth giving a thought or time…..It took me some time but I learnt that its not always important to be right in every aspect…n you should not keep yourself so bounded always…..mann hai to hai….
You should have seen me few days back…I was Quiet, n tensed…didn’t even spoke to my near n dear ones, wanted to but did’nt…not even followed my schedule….and was thinking hw does it makes a difference to anyone…how does it matter?? everyone is busy with their chores…but that matters…n if not to anyone… to me it does…….I wanted to figure out things…n I needed time…till yesterday I was trying way too hard…..Thanks to Ms Kriti Palawat…she has all ears for me..to support me out n out…..I have started being myself for a change…after a long time….its quite possible that people around me must me thinking what a weirdo…till yesterday she was not even responding properly and today all happy n gay…but trust me it took a lot of effort…a LOT means a LOT…
Bhai called up today…n he read my blogs ..he was like…"di do u write only when u r upset????…coz this is not u" :) He said…can’t u apply Jo Hoga Dekha Jayega wala attitude…. Well he was trying to explain his part…cute :) ….n that answered my question….
May be things not taking a right turn, but you can make them turn the rite way through your thoughts…..and your attitude….
No more trials no more if’s….jes being myself will help me…I know…..
I should write often…not only when I m upset…coz I guess my Bro will get upset then; he he he…He actually sounded concerned…for her elder sis …well good for me…will soon post another one…something there in my mind….till the time come….u all njoy….cya...
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The Writing phase leading to Phrases
18 Nov 07
Jes wrote some phrases....time pass u c
1) A line that is drawn between friendship and relationship has no dimension if even one of them does not know the geometry of emotions.
2) Life for me has been so kind, always being so mysterious, leaving everything for me to explore.
3) Love, can never be expressed when there is fear of denial and can never be felt when there is fear of self-denial/prudence/caution.
4) An emotional person is successful in the ever lasting phase of life called RELATIONS.
Jes wrote some phrases....time pass u c
1) A line that is drawn between friendship and relationship has no dimension if even one of them does not know the geometry of emotions.
2) Life for me has been so kind, always being so mysterious, leaving everything for me to explore.
3) Love, can never be expressed when there is fear of denial and can never be felt when there is fear of self-denial/prudence/caution.
4) An emotional person is successful in the ever lasting phase of life called RELATIONS.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
PPT- Pre Placement TiZZiness
16th Oct'07
Well I was avoiding this but I guess Writing helps a lot..when you jes want to be quiet and know that cant explain certain things to anyone. My tone do reflect a feel of negativity… rite??? But I guess its jes the sign of prolonged wait for something that is The most important…PLACEMENT… Not actually worried about it but ya want it to happen as soon as possible…everyone wants that…Very happy for my frenz who have been placed and who have been so anxiously waiting for us to be placed to have a blast !!!!! people back home, old frenz all waiting for D day…n moreover our decisions for going HOME for Diwali..I hope I can figure out something by then….
Every morning when I wake up I have a different feel….incomparable from the previous day…n believe me I m enjoying this ride like heaven in the clouds of thoughts so very weird, obnoxious, and at times positive…( hey bit too poetic he he he) but to be true….till date I have never had that utmost positive strike…that you generally have at times when u go for something very important and I guess that will only come on the Day that is MINE….that is only for me, meant for me :) even writing this put a Smile on my face…
I must say that these experiences will stay with me forever, starting from answering those stupid questions of some straight forward people…to questions from those high profiled recruiters…Gosh at times they are devil and at times…. Ask those who have been placed…u’ll get all kinds of adjectives associated wid them…depending upon whether they have selected u or rejected u….but on a very serious note…every time your convictions are questioned you rediscover yourself…and that is what ;may be I should look forward to….people might think that I m depressed or under pressure but I know I m not..its another side of the coin…that is a deep rooted thought process that could either give me a boost or jes give a subdued profile…coz at times I jes don’t say anything but have lot of things going on in my mind…Ya at times I want someone to be there to understand that and jes be there wid me…But I have realized that for me deviation is possible only if I want…n that is a TYPICAL VIRGO…. No one can ever bring me out of my reverie, or thought process if I don’t want that myself….analyzer….the term sounds great but at times I actually have to prod my self..that chill..dont have to think that much…..but I guess…virgos can’t help it..atleast that’s the answer I give to myself…
Since two days Jigyasa n me are out an out supporting each other…I know sounding cliché…n both of us actually don’t need that..but I guess sometimes you dnt even know what u need…she came to me last nite…n jes hug me……saying will miss you like hell after leaving from here….I m bad at expressing to people-that how important someone is for me…I take it in a very different way..cant explain that…but I have already started feeling that so called wind of secede with the ones that have become a part of my routine, my thoughts, my concern…but that is what life is….n its all part n parcel of the game …though writing that hurts :(
I guess should end with a contented feel that the day is not that far when I would be earning, spending, planning all my expenses on my own…n could afford a gift or two for someone I feel like gifting he he he…..
Chalo..hope to post the next one….When I m termed as EMPLOYED :)
Well I was avoiding this but I guess Writing helps a lot..when you jes want to be quiet and know that cant explain certain things to anyone. My tone do reflect a feel of negativity… rite??? But I guess its jes the sign of prolonged wait for something that is The most important…PLACEMENT… Not actually worried about it but ya want it to happen as soon as possible…everyone wants that…Very happy for my frenz who have been placed and who have been so anxiously waiting for us to be placed to have a blast !!!!! people back home, old frenz all waiting for D day…n moreover our decisions for going HOME for Diwali..I hope I can figure out something by then….
Every morning when I wake up I have a different feel….incomparable from the previous day…n believe me I m enjoying this ride like heaven in the clouds of thoughts so very weird, obnoxious, and at times positive…( hey bit too poetic he he he) but to be true….till date I have never had that utmost positive strike…that you generally have at times when u go for something very important and I guess that will only come on the Day that is MINE….that is only for me, meant for me :) even writing this put a Smile on my face…
I must say that these experiences will stay with me forever, starting from answering those stupid questions of some straight forward people…to questions from those high profiled recruiters…Gosh at times they are devil and at times…. Ask those who have been placed…u’ll get all kinds of adjectives associated wid them…depending upon whether they have selected u or rejected u….but on a very serious note…every time your convictions are questioned you rediscover yourself…and that is what ;may be I should look forward to….people might think that I m depressed or under pressure but I know I m not..its another side of the coin…that is a deep rooted thought process that could either give me a boost or jes give a subdued profile…coz at times I jes don’t say anything but have lot of things going on in my mind…Ya at times I want someone to be there to understand that and jes be there wid me…But I have realized that for me deviation is possible only if I want…n that is a TYPICAL VIRGO…. No one can ever bring me out of my reverie, or thought process if I don’t want that myself….analyzer….the term sounds great but at times I actually have to prod my self..that chill..dont have to think that much…..but I guess…virgos can’t help it..atleast that’s the answer I give to myself…
Since two days Jigyasa n me are out an out supporting each other…I know sounding cliché…n both of us actually don’t need that..but I guess sometimes you dnt even know what u need…she came to me last nite…n jes hug me……saying will miss you like hell after leaving from here….I m bad at expressing to people-that how important someone is for me…I take it in a very different way..cant explain that…but I have already started feeling that so called wind of secede with the ones that have become a part of my routine, my thoughts, my concern…but that is what life is….n its all part n parcel of the game …though writing that hurts :(
I guess should end with a contented feel that the day is not that far when I would be earning, spending, planning all my expenses on my own…n could afford a gift or two for someone I feel like gifting he he he…..
Chalo..hope to post the next one….When I m termed as EMPLOYED :)
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