Yeah…going HOME!!!!!!!! To even write this is an amazing feeling!!! believe me….especially for me!!!!!! I wanted a break..big time and was waiting for this day. I know how I have spent the last week..anxiously waiting for THE DAY….
Well I had my doubts to catch my flight on time…and I am saying this coz there were so many things in my way from college to airport :-) like rain ( raining like cats n dogs), arranging the bike, the odd timing permission, to Rescue the bike before 4 in the morning, Petrol availability and what not???? Putting all the things at their right place is actually tough out here with everyone having some problem or the other……gosh..its okay..all good things take their own sweet time…..
And this time it did :-). I reached the airport just in time!!!!! Thanks to the smooth driving of Mr. Gemini, though it started raining and we didn’t know the way, we still managed to reach at 5:35 A.M when my flight was at 6:00. After checking in and the security check, the airport staff at the time of my boarding called out on their walky talky – “ 5 short”- that was the time when I realized, how timely I entered. Science n technology has done WONDERS!!!! And when they get connected with your urge…..don’t ask, they are the Savior…. I was dying to reach my place, an being there in 3 hrs instead of normal 32 hrs journey was an amazing feeling. Jaipur experience was fun… I actually felt touched when all my frenz out there called me right aftet I landed to enquire about my plans, when to meet etc etc…Met Himanshu, Ankur, and Pooja. She actually planned everything. We went to our favorite place…Indian Spice at G.T ( a hangout, where we always landed for E.T-eye tonic :-) for us G.T <=>E.T ) had a good breakfast along with our chit chat and gossips with our spicy remarks- “accha..I never knew this…” as always :-) then went with ankur to ajmer…and those 8 days..WOW !!!!!!!! they jes flew away…
This Rakhi was unforgettable. All the time I was humming our common traditional song that all we cousin sing when we are back together at our place…
Dukh ke din beete re bhaiya ab Sukh aayo reeeee…
Had the busiest days, most tiring days and enjoyable hours and the best part was my gang of cousins, who pampered me like a ‘SMALL SIS’ and were always around to make me feel the BEST. 23 people at one place..Man!!!! it was actually a marriage rehearsal for Princy di..filled with emotions, chaos, shouting, masti, music and difficult situations to handle… In short my trip was a Total Blast!!!!
Then what????? Every good thing has an end :-(, came back on 2nd night.......stayed at my L.G’s..hey must say..they are one of the nicest people I’ve ever seen. Touchwood for that!!!!
Came back to college on 3rd morning in a faculty bus…Uff....yet another experience traveling with Staring faculty…questioning with their looks… Y u Students come everywhere..THIS Bus is Ours..he he he.. Met my frenz, all enquiring about stuff I got for them. Two days from then, went to city to meet jigyasa n Sachin, was really looking forward to meet both of them, she actually called 10 times to ask when am I coming…on the other hand HAD to convince Mr. Gemini to accompany….imagine!!!! Must say he pulls the trigger at the right time to get his work done, through his stupid terms and conditions every time. Finally went to Pizza Hut, teased the stuarts, enjoyed and came back to college in a jet speed Bus…overall an Exult experience from 25th to 4th SEP.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
hey guys...no doubt blogging came suddenly to me..but I used to write a lot during my engineering..this post of mine is from my old collection. I generally prefer writing when I m sad or in a very different mood..so u will always find tht shrouded touch of my thoughts in my writings...this poem was written when two most important persons in my life were not beside me.. n I was goin through a tough phase..so jes pen down wht I felt...hope its not tht depressig..though I knw it is..but thts me wen I m way too Sad :)
Life for me has been full of experiences,
Some which were cheerful n some,full of grievances.
When I try to find answers of sorrows,
All I have is sight of Blank tomorrows.
My past offers me tears of pain,
I wish I could come out, but in vain.
Like others me too deserves to be happy n gay,
To live in the colors of love n Care.
But seldom do I find Someone Listening to my heart,
Left alone is my lonliness, tearing me apart.
For Days and nights I wait n Pray,
To lit up my life through the brightest Ray.
When I now look for things, I deserve,
What I get is ,some explanations n terms.
Relationships for me were so one sided,
Me Waiting, Me giving n still left unanswered.
The stage of my life is now so empty,
Where characters I want are always so anti.
I wish I have all I missed, Those years of my life,
I wanted to cherish.
I pray to God to end this phase,to have some people who set ablaze,
The FIRE of Joy, The SPRING of Love...
And above all the things I Deserve.
Life for me has been full of experiences,
Some which were cheerful n some,full of grievances.
When I try to find answers of sorrows,
All I have is sight of Blank tomorrows.
My past offers me tears of pain,
I wish I could come out, but in vain.
Like others me too deserves to be happy n gay,
To live in the colors of love n Care.
But seldom do I find Someone Listening to my heart,
Left alone is my lonliness, tearing me apart.
For Days and nights I wait n Pray,
To lit up my life through the brightest Ray.
When I now look for things, I deserve,
What I get is ,some explanations n terms.
Relationships for me were so one sided,
Me Waiting, Me giving n still left unanswered.
The stage of my life is now so empty,
Where characters I want are always so anti.
I wish I have all I missed, Those years of my life,
I wanted to cherish.
I pray to God to end this phase,to have some people who set ablaze,
The FIRE of Joy, The SPRING of Love...
And above all the things I Deserve.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
This contemporary Look!!!
Well Well finally I made up my mind to actually Blog...n this is all coz of a nautanki named Mr. Gemini.... who left no option other than to continue with this...I am not as good as him..neither at writing nor at complementing..but it was really nice to get a well created blog for myself as a gift :-) so, eventually I posted some of my previous writings....hopefully I can carry this forward.
Who knows........ few years down the line google people might approach me to add this blog site to the first search page of the most famous Blog writers.....he he he he...jes kidding... jes pampering myself in order to continue.....
Who knows........ few years down the line google people might approach me to add this blog site to the first search page of the most famous Blog writers.....he he he he...jes kidding... jes pampering myself in order to continue.....
A surge of Thoughts!!!!!
1st August:-Wednesday
Well..nothing else to do, MCIS class- don’t ask Way too boring, hence thought of just juggling with words. After a long- break, me writing something…Gosh!! what a boring presentation going on…I don’t know what is the use of coming to class………………..
eh ha…attendance of course. Didn’t get a proxy this time as well..Bad luck L
Today I am feeling a bit different. Don’t want to write the old stuff, day’s happening, but just some thoughts crossings my mind. Since few weeks me having a mix feeling of joy & sadness. Hell lot of mood swings and deep intense thoughts have kept me engrossed lately. Don’t know why, but my reverie level has reached a higher stage. I felt bad for things that hardly matters to others, I felt lonely when no one was bothered to notice it, I felt left out, I was worried for things that weren’t my type on friend’s part. I think I have developed a feeling of keeping things to myself a lot and at times it troubles me a lot. I know I can share with my close ones, but somehow I just don’t feel like, because even after sharing, I get an impression that I’ve not been understood. Ya I know sounding way too philosophical and cliché but this is what I feel. At times I feel happy about the friends
I have who care for me and as soon as I do that, something happens that wakes me up from that serene feeling and force me into a bleak atmosphere of being lonely and asks me to just be self-dependent.
Lately I have observed people being so different at different times. Its actually unpredictable and at times really difficult to digest. I know myself, as a person, my close ones, my frenz affects me a lot, 90% of my mood swings and behaviour is due to their day to day behaviour and I am actually trying to work it out. Eventually I am the one who keep thinking about the stuff that easily go unnoticed by others who are responsible for it.
I know I am a sensitive person but I was always able to strike a balance earlier between sensitivity and practicality, but these days, don’t know, just not able to.
Kriti called so many times..that is the best part, but still me ot able to come-up with effective expressive talks. Nowadays I feel that I should actually start writing about various situations and people’s behaviour during those situations (I hope and I know I can
Do tht in future J )
I am learning a lot, how a person can be so casual with things, how a person ca just ignore what happens around him/her so eeficiently. How when in group of friends, one can ignore someone near and dear to them ( so called) not in a great mood and enjoy themselves, how can a person who do not deserve even slightest of your sacrifice, your attention gets a big piece of cake and how can a friend change his/her priority for others who are not at all worth it???
Why always people who are wrong get right things?
This is sounding very depressing, but can’t help it, these thoughts are creeping in, everyday.
Jigyasa n me talk a lot these things and always lead to same conclusion in different ways.
Some people become important to you and you just can’t let it go and hence that hurts. Gosh!!! I can be so negative at times, but the fact is I always try to stay away from hurting anyone, to keep everyone around me HAPPY!!! Not trying to be modest but I actually try Hard, but then believe me its not at all easy. Anyways while writing all this I didn’t even realized that even the Q and A session is over and my group has already asked a question.
Ohhh I was so engrossed. This clumsy fellow has started taking the attendace by his own from yesterday, so o proxies, SAD !!! L Really Sad. Hey I talked to Pooja today, tried calling her yesterday after her senti message, but in vain, Today we had a half an hour talk and it was good hearing from her. She has made me feel so special lately that I actually wonder what I have done. I was always the same for her. But to be true,an amazing feeling …..Seriously. Friends for me are ‘THE PRIORITY’ and when you miss someone, when you are not together, when you are far off, you actually feel the pain and feel the importance of that person. I just hope I can always be there for my frenz whenever they need me, can’t see them sad. Okay now I should give-up, attendance is over and I can write more and more.
Lets see...
Gosh I know tough to handle the readings na....great going..thanks
Well..nothing else to do, MCIS class- don’t ask Way too boring, hence thought of just juggling with words. After a long- break, me writing something…Gosh!! what a boring presentation going on…I don’t know what is the use of coming to class………………..
eh ha…attendance of course. Didn’t get a proxy this time as well..Bad luck L
Today I am feeling a bit different. Don’t want to write the old stuff, day’s happening, but just some thoughts crossings my mind. Since few weeks me having a mix feeling of joy & sadness. Hell lot of mood swings and deep intense thoughts have kept me engrossed lately. Don’t know why, but my reverie level has reached a higher stage. I felt bad for things that hardly matters to others, I felt lonely when no one was bothered to notice it, I felt left out, I was worried for things that weren’t my type on friend’s part. I think I have developed a feeling of keeping things to myself a lot and at times it troubles me a lot. I know I can share with my close ones, but somehow I just don’t feel like, because even after sharing, I get an impression that I’ve not been understood. Ya I know sounding way too philosophical and cliché but this is what I feel. At times I feel happy about the friends
I have who care for me and as soon as I do that, something happens that wakes me up from that serene feeling and force me into a bleak atmosphere of being lonely and asks me to just be self-dependent.
Lately I have observed people being so different at different times. Its actually unpredictable and at times really difficult to digest. I know myself, as a person, my close ones, my frenz affects me a lot, 90% of my mood swings and behaviour is due to their day to day behaviour and I am actually trying to work it out. Eventually I am the one who keep thinking about the stuff that easily go unnoticed by others who are responsible for it.
I know I am a sensitive person but I was always able to strike a balance earlier between sensitivity and practicality, but these days, don’t know, just not able to.
Kriti called so many times..that is the best part, but still me ot able to come-up with effective expressive talks. Nowadays I feel that I should actually start writing about various situations and people’s behaviour during those situations (I hope and I know I can
Do tht in future J )
I am learning a lot, how a person can be so casual with things, how a person ca just ignore what happens around him/her so eeficiently. How when in group of friends, one can ignore someone near and dear to them ( so called) not in a great mood and enjoy themselves, how can a person who do not deserve even slightest of your sacrifice, your attention gets a big piece of cake and how can a friend change his/her priority for others who are not at all worth it???
Why always people who are wrong get right things?
This is sounding very depressing, but can’t help it, these thoughts are creeping in, everyday.
Jigyasa n me talk a lot these things and always lead to same conclusion in different ways.
Some people become important to you and you just can’t let it go and hence that hurts. Gosh!!! I can be so negative at times, but the fact is I always try to stay away from hurting anyone, to keep everyone around me HAPPY!!! Not trying to be modest but I actually try Hard, but then believe me its not at all easy. Anyways while writing all this I didn’t even realized that even the Q and A session is over and my group has already asked a question.
Ohhh I was so engrossed. This clumsy fellow has started taking the attendace by his own from yesterday, so o proxies, SAD !!! L Really Sad. Hey I talked to Pooja today, tried calling her yesterday after her senti message, but in vain, Today we had a half an hour talk and it was good hearing from her. She has made me feel so special lately that I actually wonder what I have done. I was always the same for her. But to be true,an amazing feeling …..Seriously. Friends for me are ‘THE PRIORITY’ and when you miss someone, when you are not together, when you are far off, you actually feel the pain and feel the importance of that person. I just hope I can always be there for my frenz whenever they need me, can’t see them sad. Okay now I should give-up, attendance is over and I can write more and more.
Lets see...
Gosh I know tough to handle the readings na....great going..thanks
lets c !!!!!!!!!
29th JUNE
Hey...jes felt like writing while reading the retail article...I have a presentation on wed..n I really wnt it to be gr8..this is one class I njoy attending,,strange na..classes n njoyment and tht too me :-) newys..listening to music aftr a long time wid my headphones..Aatif..kuch iss tarah...Awwwwwesome....
Dnt knw feeling bit awkward rite now..thr r some songs tht have a story..I knw I m sounding weird but they actually do.There are so many relations that change wid time..though you dnt wnt them to....but it jes happens..I m lucky to have atleast one relation that I knw will never change..wht ever happens...n thts Kriti n Me...I really miss her..she is one person who knows me in n out. There are times when I jes wnt sumone to be thr wid me..to understand me widout...... me sayin anything....though she is not tht mature..bt she actually cares for me..... I knw tht.
There are times wen i feel so very lonely...n thr is a pblm wid me...i cnt express my self wen I m upset..I jes cant...n thts the time wen I miss her d most. Even in front of her I never used to mention any reasons...but she was after my life...until n unless I tell her... she will keep bothering me through those stupid questions of hers. Actually she knows hw to get things out of me :-) Thank you God for giving me atleast one person whom I can trust blindly...Though I cnt write how I feel when I don't have neone to talk to..when I want her to be thr for me..coz she is the one who knows every bit of my life..those days when I was really tryin hard to stay happy...I still remember we use to jes sit quietly in our college garden for hours..she jes sitting beside me..saying nothing at all but still making me feel that "Amisha everything happens for good"...This was her pet Dailogue..coz in my case everything needed an explanation...Y Did it actually happen????? :-)
Well here at ICFAI things no doubt have taken a smooth swivel....n I was actually able to shroud many things tht were required.... in the nick of time. and I guess things are not that bad...infact better than wht I thought. I have made frenz..quite a lot of them...but still...dnt knw....
Things change so suddenly that you can never be sure of anything. Some things are so deeply instilled that I am really skeptical that...... will I be able to live upto the expectations of all...this is the time when I dont knw tht shud I be tizzy about the happenings or shud I be the way I am....Dad is really sweet I knw but I am a kind of person who cnt say No for anything so easily to my Pops.....n on the othr side of d coin Kriti is so excited about the happenings..nd she actually wants something to happen in near future...coz she thinks that the sooner I adapt the new things the better it is...she wants me to jes live in present..she is absolutely rite but I knw that once I have made up my mind I can stay wid it...but I knw she cares...lets c...I am actually nervous...Well shud I find one ????? :-) thrs one thing for sure I hv lost the decision power wen tht matter is concern....so its better to wait n watch....
Ya yestrday only one of my freind ws so shocked to know that I dnt have a boyfriend.....the expressions were AAAMazing!!!!!! she actually asked me thrice....asked me y am I always on phone then? Y I Have'nt chosen sumone frm the campus..nd I ws actually smiling...do I give an impression of having a boyfriend????? dnt know...well ppl do call me a person wid BIG Attitude....gud for me... :-)..n thy actually keep guessing things...its funny at times
Hey Princy di called today..she ws missing me...n even I wntd to talk to her since a week...but somehow it ws not happening....we talked for good 15-20 min....she is a sweet sis of mine...she actually share wid me each n evrything...be it nethin...n i knw she not even tell stuff to her elder sis...but to me...I njoy talkin to her...n she is getting married..I wish I can attend her marriage...n even..Pooja's marriage ....well well well...Marriages are in the environment...atleast for my near n dear ones.....gud gud...i love my family marriages...thy r anti depressant...dances..masti...hectic days....lovely...eh ehh...i knw gettin too excited..lets c hw many of them I miss n hw many I attend..
Also had a nice chat wid.. Swati di...touchwood..she is fine...n touchwood i have been blessed wid amzng cousins..thy all love me so much...chalo koi to hai..... :-) she too ws Missing me :-)
Was tryin to send some msgs thru IP...bt jes not wrkin...irritating....shud stop tryin now...newys wntd to write more..bt guess its enough for the day...hopefully i write better nxt time...I seriously dont knw..wht hs happened to my writin skill...kriti hoti thi tab hum dono likhte the....
I hope I'll improve...
Dinner time now...n a movie may be....chalo den cya.....wish to write again ...n no doubt better than dis...plz God...
Hey...jes felt like writing while reading the retail article...I have a presentation on wed..n I really wnt it to be gr8..this is one class I njoy attending,,strange na..classes n njoyment and tht too me :-) newys..listening to music aftr a long time wid my headphones..Aatif..kuch iss tarah...Awwwwwesome....
Dnt knw feeling bit awkward rite now..thr r some songs tht have a story..I knw I m sounding weird but they actually do.There are so many relations that change wid time..though you dnt wnt them to....but it jes happens..I m lucky to have atleast one relation that I knw will never change..wht ever happens...n thts Kriti n Me...I really miss her..she is one person who knows me in n out. There are times when I jes wnt sumone to be thr wid me..to understand me widout...... me sayin anything....though she is not tht mature..bt she actually cares for me..... I knw tht.
There are times wen i feel so very lonely...n thr is a pblm wid me...i cnt express my self wen I m upset..I jes cant...n thts the time wen I miss her d most. Even in front of her I never used to mention any reasons...but she was after my life...until n unless I tell her... she will keep bothering me through those stupid questions of hers. Actually she knows hw to get things out of me :-) Thank you God for giving me atleast one person whom I can trust blindly...Though I cnt write how I feel when I don't have neone to talk to..when I want her to be thr for me..coz she is the one who knows every bit of my life..those days when I was really tryin hard to stay happy...I still remember we use to jes sit quietly in our college garden for hours..she jes sitting beside me..saying nothing at all but still making me feel that "Amisha everything happens for good"...This was her pet Dailogue..coz in my case everything needed an explanation...Y Did it actually happen????? :-)
Well here at ICFAI things no doubt have taken a smooth swivel....n I was actually able to shroud many things tht were required.... in the nick of time. and I guess things are not that bad...infact better than wht I thought. I have made frenz..quite a lot of them...but still...dnt knw....
Things change so suddenly that you can never be sure of anything. Some things are so deeply instilled that I am really skeptical that...... will I be able to live upto the expectations of all...this is the time when I dont knw tht shud I be tizzy about the happenings or shud I be the way I am....Dad is really sweet I knw but I am a kind of person who cnt say No for anything so easily to my Pops.....n on the othr side of d coin Kriti is so excited about the happenings..nd she actually wants something to happen in near future...coz she thinks that the sooner I adapt the new things the better it is...she wants me to jes live in present..she is absolutely rite but I knw that once I have made up my mind I can stay wid it...but I knw she cares...lets c...I am actually nervous...Well shud I find one ????? :-) thrs one thing for sure I hv lost the decision power wen tht matter is concern....so its better to wait n watch....
Ya yestrday only one of my freind ws so shocked to know that I dnt have a boyfriend.....the expressions were AAAMazing!!!!!! she actually asked me thrice....asked me y am I always on phone then? Y I Have'nt chosen sumone frm the campus..nd I ws actually smiling...do I give an impression of having a boyfriend????? dnt know...well ppl do call me a person wid BIG Attitude....gud for me... :-)..n thy actually keep guessing things...its funny at times
Hey Princy di called today..she ws missing me...n even I wntd to talk to her since a week...but somehow it ws not happening....we talked for good 15-20 min....she is a sweet sis of mine...she actually share wid me each n evrything...be it nethin...n i knw she not even tell stuff to her elder sis...but to me...I njoy talkin to her...n she is getting married..I wish I can attend her marriage...n even..Pooja's marriage ....well well well...Marriages are in the environment...atleast for my near n dear ones.....gud gud...i love my family marriages...thy r anti depressant...dances..masti...hectic days....lovely...eh ehh...i knw gettin too excited..lets c hw many of them I miss n hw many I attend..
Also had a nice chat wid.. Swati di...touchwood..she is fine...n touchwood i have been blessed wid amzng cousins..thy all love me so much...chalo koi to hai..... :-) she too ws Missing me :-)
Was tryin to send some msgs thru IP...bt jes not wrkin...irritating....shud stop tryin now...newys wntd to write more..bt guess its enough for the day...hopefully i write better nxt time...I seriously dont knw..wht hs happened to my writin skill...kriti hoti thi tab hum dono likhte the....
I hope I'll improve...
Dinner time now...n a movie may be....chalo den cya.....wish to write again ...n no doubt better than dis...plz God...
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