S [[ @TTERED and SH@TTERED

I would not make it a complicated post, neither a long one, let’s comes directly to the point. I m feeling “LOST” completely scattered and spaced out. Reasons:

1) The dilemma of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong in my personal life.
2) The pain of the dental treatment, which I thought would be a normal one, but it became complicated, so much so, that I had to take a week’s off.
3) The mental fatigue- due to thinking on issues that are beyond my control.
4) My cook- who left us, n we trying to figure out a way to handle stuff with a lazy flat mate.
5) Last but not the least, the most important one- discovering something that shook me from within. For few it’s just a casual thing, without a thought but for few, it means a world. Sounding vague?????? But I know what it is.

How will you feel when you come to know that the most important thing suddenly becomes a matter of “time”, or meager?
Things aren’t looking too great for me at this point of time, but I am not losing hope. I know there are better things waiting for me. There are times when you think that everything is just not worth it, just not required. It’s like a bird in the cage, its like waiting for the first light, of the dawn.
The emptiness is agonizing but still it has to be taken well.
There are few people who have the right to disturb you in a positive and a negative way, and on the other hand there are few people who can just by their mere mention make you feel so infuriating. I know that one should not allow the later ones to affect them so much, but sometimes it just cannot be ignored.
How can someone get away with everything, they do??? This female has no self respect for herself, neither from others nor from her supposedly close ones, but still manages to get away in a smooth way. I think this is a good quality but I personally don’t want to learn. Learning at times can be so dangerous. It’s better to survive alone rather than with a set of people who are a Shame to themselves or to others. Lot of things said and done, the only thing I want is that, this female should not get a reward for even her failures (as a person) and blunders with others this time atleast. It’s important to Show people that YOU ARE WRONG, and you CANNOT just LET GO everything according to your own whims and fancies.

Am I over reacting??? I guess I am not.
Life is a learning- experience curve. Things do take a complete circle. You begin with nothing, a point, then you move along with it and after something you find that you are on the same starting point. How funny, but it’s true, and at times seems a waste of effort and time.


P.S: this post is just a source to throw my annoyance. Please don’t make conclusions.